innocent massacre / Comments

i...i dont know..
your friend B?
i dont know what to do.
im out of my mind.

now i wouldnt want you to do that just because i got sent away...
im spiraling out of control.
i know you dont wanna loose me..but i dont know..

im going insane !
maybe they should send me away..

i know, but i dont think i can.
right now im throwing caution to the wind i dont care what i do right now

just close your eyes sometimes it helps...then i get this thought....and its over.

i know your there...but im scared.
im all alone...
i just...i dont know anymore

you know once you start a hunger frenzy goes off..
this isnt working for me im getting angry.
shelbz..im sorry for what im about to do

i know... i know.
but im going deep i want to feel it i want to hurt

i-im not sure what to do..
im freaking out.
i cant pull myself together.

no im done. im so done.
i really dont want to do this.
i wanna do it know. i already have my scissors.

i think im going to kill myself now.
im done.

yeah my mom and my sister are both being complete bitches.
i just cant stand living here anymore i dont know what to do.
yeah but the problem with silly bands is, is that they ride up and bunch up.
yeah im deff gonna try and aviod her.

no its ok shelbz..im just really emotional today.

yeah i just have to be careful. but knowing me i know im going to forget...i know someone a.k.a my mom will be watching me like a hawk and she'll always be staring at it.
awww well it wouldnt hurt to ask her love.
i just cant pull myself together i cant stop crying.

ummm i dont think i can. so basically im shit out of luck.
im basically screwing myself over and setting myself up to a hospital.
aww well could you ask someone like your friend B to buy them for you?
i dont wanna go i really dont...im like in tears..

yeah i mean i do wear bracelets everyday but i dont have enough well im getting to the point when i dont have enough. yeah that would be awful to be in a psych ward its basically like a fucking prison

yeah its gonna be really hard....and having to hide my wrist since i can tell im going to be reckless and not even think about it and forget i cut...i dont know what i would do if they sent me away i think..omg i think i would die.

awww well that sucks...well im not gonna give you any ideas. im pretty sure know one knows how many are on mine i never use my left wrist ever.

yeah i totally get it your surrounded by people but your lonely. i totally get it cause thats how i feel.

its going to be really hard...i like have urges right now and i know they are only going to get worse. so im gonna end up doing it really soon. yeah im gonna do it in the bathroom like when i have to shower and shit.

awww well at least you wont be alone.
yeah thats how i am but i think them all the time.

yeah i dont see how it would stop the thoughts but at least you have someone,

yeah i really cant seem to distract my self either.
aww yeah love, i know what you mean its always there when you think its gone but then it just comes up and attacks you slowly.
but im going to the beach and wont be back until next friday but i dont know what im going to do when i need to cut cause i'll be with other people.
what are you doing?

ahah those damn bed bugs finally stayed away :D

ehhhh after last night..im not really sure...im just numb.
therapy was ok..i guess...we basically dissed my family the whole time lol.
im not really sure what to do with myself