One of my fucking friends told him I talked shit about him [[thats what he told me]] and i think i know who they are, trust me i ripped them I new ass.
And i still dont talk to them, and i dont plan to for the rest of my fucking natural life.
And omg, im so sorry, and you didnt TURN him gay, so dont think that,
I talked to him a bit after the breakup,
but he actually told me I enver loved him, when i spent over 18 hours total, just writing baout the days I spent with him.
I spent 3 hours drawings him a picture,
I gave him my heart, my soul, my time.
And he told me he had a new girl that loved him unlike I did.
I told him to fuck off and eat shit.
I went off.
And then he said i was acting very christian
I blew up, I take it so offensively when someone makes fun of my religion.
He was such a bitch.
But I still miss him, so fucking much.
I just want walking.....and literally tooka trip down memory lane, and i cried a little bit.
Its, my hearts been shattered.
And the pieces are scattered everywhere. In tiny tiny pieces, that are so hard to pick up.......
I pray HOURS each night, that it'll go back to the way it used to be......
I feel betrayed By him, God, My friends, Even my family that hates when I talk about him.
My poem Letter To God, describes how I feel,
I want to be happy, I so want to.
But I was never happy until I was with him,
and how that he's gone I don't know what to do.
Aww thanks!
And everyone does tell me there will be another guy...but he was so perfect, he was the guy of my dreams.
And I dont take perfection lightly, and he just up and left.
I just feel so fucking betrayed.
I guess everyone but me :/
The only thing, well person that made me happy left me.
People tell me to get over it, and move on...
but I can't knowing, I don't have my adora-chan anymore 3 I miss him so fucking bad....
Just the thought of him with his new girl, it makes me naseous, it makes me cry, it makes me wanna die.
Sorry,
I don't mean to sound depressing.
And yeah, today was horrible, it was better than most, but still horrible >_<
each day is usually bad for me.
It's the usual.
I'm glad you had a good day.
It's nice to see someone happy Lol.
It's hard to walk in my shoes, but, I don't think I'd want to walk in anybody else's....maybe.
x]
Wake up, get dressed, go to school, get called emo :P, think about my ex bf, get outta school, come home, and listen to music and drown out the world......LOL
so my day, hmmm
was pretty average.
Hmmm well
The Maine, My chemical Romance, Nickasaur, Paramore, 9 days, Bowling for soup, All time low, 3OH!3, Sum 41, Blink 182, Mariana's Trench, The mission district, The new cities, and We the kings.
Just to name a few LOL