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Oh, yeah... sorry kitty.... i forgot to mention.... thanks for commenting on my poem... i really appreciate it. :)

My Grandpa is doing well, I haven't been able to call him in the last little while (he lives on the other side of Canada from me). But from what my Mom says he's doing well. He's a trooper and to stuburn to let something like this take him down. He told my Mom that he thinks that the other patients could use a guy like him to talk to :D

Hello. i'd like to tell you that there is now a deadline on my contest.
It's March 21.

http://www.mibba.com/forums/topic/post/9075599/#9075599

there you go!

I'll take you up on that prayer request right now, about a week ago I found out that my Grandpa has prostate cancer. It has a high sucess rate even at it's worste and I know he's not worried about it and God is there with him through his treatment but if you could I would really appeiciate it if you could pray for him as well. His name is Denis Parker.

down easily with an unknown family. ^_^
But wow….I don’t think I can ever play that long. Vuow. Haha, yeah. I hate to take advantage of things. …… though I can’t help not thinking about it sometimes. Haha, well all the great movies are usually rated-R. One of the greatest movies ever, Schindler’s List is rated R. I would be damned if I am prevented from seeing such a great movie. Oh yeah!! Those things! Hah, thanks for reminding me. I’ll get one of those!

Do I walk like a diva? Heck no. At least, I don’t think so. Nice? He is far from that. Sometimes I can’t even stare at him and he is giving me the evil eye. I would have to study him to see what he has similar to me. Haha, my dog does that too. If another dog comes along, he looks like he skips around. And if he gets chased by a chicken like last time, he looks like he’s roller skating for his life, hahah. And hah, he acts so tough against dogs twice his size, yet turns chicken to dogs his size, or literally to chickens. Wow, so there’s a pack of dogs there? I have a family of dogs. The father, a son, and a son of another mother. And ……… your little turd? …. ^_^…… haha….. Isn’t that word supposed to mean a log shaped doodoo? Hhaha, how cute, hey handsome. Lol. And sure! You just have to find the similarities with them. Another dog? What kind? :D I’ve been looking to get a pug. Hmmm… no. I don’t. I doubt they die of a lonely heart, they just live eating, and sleeping, and every season go around looking for mates. Random mates for 200 years? Paha, I don’t think you can call that lonely for them. They must love that life. Plus, I think they have incredibly small brains so it’s possible they don’t even know anything except for the instincts that was given to them, which is eat, sleep, hide, and mate. :/They could not care for humans or any other species except themselves. I don’t recall anything from that year either. :/

Yeah, of course. Though it was such a weird happy place. Haha, I mean don’t you understand that therapist was probably you with that therapy thingie you mentioned once. :/ Pretty odd. But it made me realise therapists could be so hot. :P
Ducky? Well I thought so. Instead I had to redo that course, and those people were pretty mad. “This is mini golf, not golf dammit.” They just jealous. :/
Wow! That obvious? I had a friend who looked like a white boy, mom thought he was white, :/ was Mexican. And I had a friend who looked latin, auntie thought presumed he was Mexican like moi, :/ he was Salvadorian. Haha, :/ it would be funny if your parents figured Mexican when he was probably Cuban, haha. I hear Cubans, Puerto Ricans, and Mexicans are common in the east. Over here Mexicans, Salvadorians, Guatemalans, and Chilenos are common. Well, yep. You can maybe noticed a grand change in me right now. A bit dull, because I just saw the Super Bowl and was a bit disappointed I didn’t see a comeback. So I can easily change so much over little things. Whoa! Africa?! No wonder why you knew their time zone so well. And that’s sweet. But it sucks that it takes 30 days to receive something. Hah, well at least you know to send a gift 30 days in advanced for a timely reception. =)

And it’s fine. It wasn’t that much missing I think. I am just content with the fact that im still messaging you. I’ve sent a message before to some and for a odd reason, some have abruptly stopped replying. I always wonder if I said something insulting. I’m really bad at these. And thanks for still talking to me and not cutting me off.

Oh wow. That sucks. Well you have to do what you gotta do. :/ I hope you find what your looking for. Tch, I really have not even the opportunity to do that. And I love people who cook! I guess taking that I suck at it, not because I want them to cook for me. Haha, I just admire that whole taking your time to learn it, and support yourself and others with it. Though I can’t cook, I have found the process of it is such a time waster and a stress reliever. Hahaha!! OMG really?!! Hah, well I understand if you were trying to make cheddar juice or something and out comes the macaroni done. : ) I forget to put oil on everything and mess things up. And I once burnt a piece of ham beyond recognition. I literally cremated it. And thanks!! :D I hope to learn one day. You’re right. Nobodies hopeless. Unless they decide to give up.

And a few years ago? But a few years ago you were like 13-16 years old. Oh god, wow. Well actually that one loony I mentioned is a fresh 14 I think. It’s like no limits these days now. And after a few days? Like…. 7 days, days? Or… O_O like less? Jeez, now you know what I mean with that. Only a f’ing insane person would be all “I love you” after like so little time. That completely proves that I wasted so much time talking to a pointless insane person. Tch. Was this mibba? But did you tell Your cousin about it? And my question is, did you show yourself to him? How could someone prove to be so insane so quickly. Yeah, praise god he isn’t going to be your husband. And I’m glad nobody like that has been near you. Haha, such a stereotype but funny enough, most of those guys do tend to be fat, bald, and old. Oh and sweaty. And…. Well yeah. It’s like an aphrodisiac to them tricking boys and acting like females online, and having them you know, socialize dirty. And it was a unique comparison, but not a different matter. Just the extreme subjects I highlighted. I couldn’t think of a better thing. It’s just the mind getting familiar with things. Things proven a mystery to it, will usually give misery to it because of it’s perplexity. But the familiarity soon to come, will bring adaptability to the fray. Failure to do so will only break it. I can’t think of another way to say it.

I suppose so. But loneliness has proven to be one of the worst tings to endure in this life. And well I don’t know many who would. But you’d be surprised. It’s usually capable of being done alone with a person. You just have to find the right times. Of course it does not compare to those group thingies because you have total strangers sharing and caring. It is pretty interesting. But I can’t find myself ever being in such a group/place. And hmmm… I’m not really sure what exactly are you questioning the thanks to. Haha, and sure!! You have to get used to that person’s presence and style of things. I can actually act like a black diva sometimes, or just completely random and you would have to get used to it. You wouldn’t know since It doesn’t show on here. Meeting someone is truly knowing them (like ive said). You could even discover the little things that make them like a friend of mine says know what im sayin, a lot and stick his tongue out a lot. My brother rolls his eyes. Haha, you get what im saying? You can even memorize their walk or how loud they sound when they walk. It’s weird what im saying, but yeah, 3D reality sure beats 2D world. But types? Hah, well I guess you can memorize the occasional ^_^ or misspellings.

Well no one HAS to be interested in those. I don’t focus on dating and all that. I rarely read those obnoxious magazines that deal with celebrities. Or anything else I should supposedly be doing. I just let things unravel by themselves. Going with the flow. Hah, wow. And they don’t get asked the question? That’s so weird. What kind of figure? Big butt? Haha jk, but then I would seriously wonder why in the heck do they ask that question. Ducky? And really?! Well…… that’s good to know that I’d do great at family reunions. It’s very enlightening when I know I can settle down easily with an unknown family. ^_^
But wow….I don’t think I can ever play that long. Vuow. Haha, yeah. I hate to take advantage of things. …… though I can’t help not thinking about it sometimes. Haha, well all the great movies are usually rated-R. One of the greatest movies ever, Schindler’s List is rated R. I would be damned if I am prevented from seeing such a great movie. Oh yeah!! Those things! Hah, thanks for reminding me. I’ll get one of those!

Do I walk like a diva? Heck no. At least, I don’t think so. Nice? He is far from that. Sometimes I can’t even stare at him and he is giving me the evil eye. I would have to study him to see what he has similar to me. Haha, my dog does that too. If another dog comes along, he looks like he skips around. And if he gets chased by a chicken like last time, he looks like he’s roller skating for his life, hahah. And hah, he acts so tough against dogs twice his size, yet turns chicken to dogs his size, or literally to chickens. Wow, so there’s a pack of dogs there? I have a family of dogs. The father, a son, and a son of another mother. And ……… your little turd? …. ^_^…… haha….. Isn’t that word supposed to mean a log shaped doodoo? Hhaha, how cute, hey handsome. Lol. And sure! You just have to find the similarities with them. Another dog? What kind? :D I’ve been looking to get a pug. Hmmm… no. I don’t. I doubt they die of a lonely heart, they just live eating, and sleeping, and every season go around looking for mates. Random mates for 200 years? Paha, I don’t think you can call that lonely for them. They must love that life. Plus, I think they have incredibly small brains so it’s possible they don’t even know anything except for the instincts that was given to them, which is eat, sleep, hide, and mate. :/ They could not care for humans or any other species except themselves. I don’t recall anything from that year either. :/

Yeah, of course. Though it was such a weird happy place. Haha, I mean don’t you understand that therapist was probably you with that therapy thingie you mentioned once. :/ Pretty odd. But it made me realise therapists could be so hot. :P
Ducky? Well I thought so. Instead I had to redo that course, and those people were pretty mad. “This is mini golf, not golf dammit.” They just jealous. :/
Wow! That obvious? I had a friend who looked like a white boy, mom thought he was white, :/ was Mexican. And I had a friend who looked latin, auntie thought presumed he was Mexican like moi, :/ he was Salvadorian. Haha, :/ it would be funny if your parents figured Mexican when he was probably Cuban, haha. I hear Cubans, Puerto Ricans, and Mexicans are common in the east. Over here Mexicans, Salvadorians, Guatemalans, and Chilenos are common. Well, yep. You can maybe noticed a grand change in me right now. A bit dull, because I just saw the Super Bowl and was a bit disappointed I didn’t see a comeback. So I can easily change so much over little things. Whoa! Africa?! No wonder why you knew their time zone so well. And that’s sweet. But it sucks that it takes 30 days to receive something. Hah, well at least you know to send a gift 30 days in advanced for a timely reception. =)

And it’s fine. It wasn’t that much missing I think. I am just content with the fact that im still messaging you. I’ve sent a message before to some and for a odd reason, some have abruptly stopped replying. I always wonder if I said something insulting. I’m really bad at these. But thanks for talking to me and not cutting me off. :)

and I would always be charged adult at theaters, but they never worried of checking my age so rated R movies for me. :/
Haha, good to know. I hope to tell them whenever they come over and are in a good mood, haha. They actually say my dog is a bit like me. Can’t see the resemblance, since he turns into such a demon when I’m around. And he walks like a diva at a pageant. I actually hope that isn’t the characteristic they are trying to assemble between us. Maybe his eyes. It always looks weary like mines. Haha which actually reminded me of gizmo. He’s a fat small chihhuahua that I always sleep with whenever I stay at my brothers. He gives so much warmth. He reminds me of the owner who’s my brothers girlfriend. He’s got honey brown eyes like her, these similar lips, and has odd sleep disorders like her. Who knows? Doggies are sometimes eerily like their owners. Haha, well his energy could be similar to someone. Or like you say his tendency to be a bit sick. Hah, and a turtle could be from your great-great-great grandfather. Haha, yeah. He’d be shocked every time. “Damn, fer real?!” it’ll say. And maybe a “thank you lord!!”. haha I’m joking. Yet as I said, awesome!! Generation of 93!! :D haha, you’re my kind of girl. ;D That actually reminded me, I had a pretty bad day a while ago, and just to try and feel better, I tried thinking of my happy place. It ended up being this old house I used to sleep in a lot. A certain room to be exact, and some people I knew were there. Some doggies, and a hot therapist lady with her hair pulled back. It was cool. And I sure was happy, haha.
Haha, I once went to an open field mini golf place with so many courses, and just to have fun, I hit the ball abit hard. I didn’t know it would actually launch of the ground like that. But it flew into the next course and I got a hole in one. :D I was happy, the people golfing there just looked stared being interrupted. Plus I said that’s sure as hell going to count once we get to that course.
Hahaha, I smile at the thought of a girl blurting out, “cherry!”. Well I mean I would understand the change of things. I’m like that too. And it is SO noticeable with me. I can’t say anything interesting, even if my life is on the line. But it’s usually only when I am getting tired or something distracting is on my mind. But Last time, he laughed at a joke, then immediately afterward turned a bit of a diva and said can’t we ever be serious for once? Was shocked taking how quickly he changed attitude. Is this 7 time zones away…….The UK? And aww, a cut off message. :/ But well I’m glad to be speaking with you. :D Good luck with the busy time. CYA next time. and Take care!

Huh. Yeah, it’s been such a busy time for everybody as I’ve been noticing. February tends to be such a busy month. You bake? Or rather you have a class for it? I’m actually busy myself with too much. And cooking is actually one of them. And I am hopeless with it. I couldn’t learn even if my life depended on it. I messed up the bacon, and overcooked the eggs, haha. And I would probably mess up making cookies. I am so hopeless. Guh, one day though, one day I’ll learn.

And yeah. It’s actually a really scary part of the online world. I mean, jesus, if you don’t get a perverted man posing as a girl or young boy, you get (in lack of a better word) a loony. I think I talked to a girl who was actually a guy once… can’t say for sure, and I also ended up talking with a crazy whacky person. Brrrrr….. But eh, at least I can say I’m glad I encountered those people. I have a brighter idea as to coming across another like them. Whoa! Your cousin arrests people? Online people? I’ve heard of that. Online predators or something? So he/she must possibly act like a underage teen to catch these folks, eh? And lol, ok sure thanks. I’ll let you know if someones giving me the heebie jeebies so you can tell my cousin, lol hahaha. Oy, and I happened to have that problem sometimes, except I actually take my time with my messages sometomes. But well, it’s normal. I’m over it a bit to be honest. It’s like they say, the first experiences are always an impacting response with your mind, but soon it gets used to it and overlooks it. Like how they say…… it always does something to you when you kill for the first time, but you learn to deal with it. It can be said for marines and co. Same with death or coping in general. My first reaction to family members deaths was extremely responsive, but then…. It became too familiar. It’s like, I don’t know how to feel about it anymore. But I know that once it gets to me, if it gets to me, it’s going to have a hold on me for good. So…. I learn to deal with thing in such a stare unfortunately. Well, it’s always a bad thing to go places on your own. Well sure, we can all be perceived as something that is not us because of first impressions and the lack of even trying to know the person. :/ everybody does that a bit unfortunately. I hope the crazy part doesn’t have to deal with your adoration with religion/bible/etc. I actually consider that a very nice aspect of you. Very sweet, pure, and enlightening aspect to you, not crazy. Yeah, it’s the whole beauty to the online world. Well, it might be the case. The whole concept to physical presence changes things. I once actually made friends with a person online. It was all casual and stuff when it came to messages, but I actually did a video conference and BOY!! Was it a huge difference!! Not in a good way. Cluelessness on what to say, the awkward silence, and somehow this person would seem to know so much yet became so clueless, which was probably the result of not being able to refer to google if you don’t know something, then claim to be so knowledgeable. Pffft. But the bad stuff of it wasn’t really on my part. It can also be vice-versa. A friend of mine is cool and all, but yet acts so different, and a total asshole, goody two shoes online.
That’s not boyish. It’s actually a common thing these days. I have not seen ONE skirt in like maybe half a year? And a dress is rare except for a special occasion. Even then still rare where I like. Hmm… I can’t imagine why those clothing would give that aura off. O_O whoa! I.. don’t know one that has a….figure. A voluptuous petite figure? ^_^ haha jk. But if so, that would actually be such an amusement to see people asking such a question. What 12 year old has a figure?! Haha, well surrrrrre. What do I have to take advantage of except pose as a 21 year old? Gamble? Actually a pretty good idea when I think about. But I dislike gambling unless it’s poker because it’s kinda fun. I Actually have in thought what in the heck becomes legal at age 21? Used to have easy beer opportunities but always denied, and I would always be charged adult at theaters, but they never worried of checking my age so rated R movies for me. :/
Haha, good to know. I hope to tell them whenever they come over and are in a good mood, haha. They actually say my dog is a bit like me. Can’t see the resemblance, since he turns into such a demon when I’m around. And he walks like a diva at a pageant. I actually hope that isn’t the characteristic they are trying to assemble between us. Maybe his eyes. It always looks weary like mines. Haha which actually reminded me of gizmo. He’s a fat small chihhuahua that I always sleep with whenever I stay at my brothers. He gives so much warmth. He reminds me of the owner who’s my brothers girlfriend. He’s got honey brown eyes like her, these similar lips, and has odd sleep disorders like her. Who knows? Doggies are sometimes eerily like their owners. Haha, well his energy could be similar to someone. Or like you say his tendency to be a bit sick. Hah, and a turtle could be from your great-great-great grandfather. Haha, yeah. He’d be shocked every time. “Damn, fer real?!” it’ll say. And maybe a “thank you lord!!”. haha I’m joking. Yet as I said, awesome!! Generation of 93!! :D haha, you’re my kind of girl. ;D That actually reminded me, I had a pretty bad day a while ago, and just to try and feel better, I tried thinking of my happy place. It ended up being this old house I used to sleep in a lot. A certain room to be exact, and some people I knew were there. Some doggies, and a hot therapist lady with her hair pulled back. It was cool. And I sure was happy, haha.
Haha, I once went to an open field mini golf place with so many courses, and just to have fun, I hit the ball abit hard. I didn’t know it would actually launch of the ground like that. But it flew into the next course and I got a hole in one. :D I was happy, the people golfing there just looked stared being interrupted. Plus I said that’s sure as hell going to count once we get to that course.
Hahaha, I smile at the thought of a girl blurting out, “cherry!”. Well I mean I would understand the change of things. I’m like that too. And it is SO noticeable with me. I can’t say anything interesting, even if my life is on the line. But it’s usually only when I am getting tired or something distracting is on my mind. But Last time, he laughed at a joke, then immediately afterward turned a bit of a diva and said can’t we ever be serious for once? Was shocked taking how quickly he changed attitude. Is this 7 time zones away…….The UK? And aww, a cut off message. :/ But well I’m glad to be speaking with you. :D Good luck with the busy time. CYA next time. and Take care!

oh .. hey.. umm sorry. Everything i wrote was really mixed up now that i notice. I had written in microsoft word and noticed a lot was missing i think. On my first message, i ended:
"feel heavily enlightened, regardless of not involving myself in that sort of stuff" ---- "My views of things are different I suppose. And hey! ….. You never know…. Maybe you are in my happy place, haha. Jk. Cool, you look just like a drawing I did a while ago. It has arms, legs, a body, dark dark brown eyes with hair. :DD haha jk. Well I suppose that helps…. Except I can’t help think of random people or celebrities. But 12 or 14? Really? And you’re 17? Hmmmm… that is very interesting. They say I look like 21... Since I was 16. So I was “legal age” to drink in many peoples eyes for 3 years now and not once have I taken advantage of it. J I once got a happy meal. I just wanted a cool toy. The meal left me happy. 12 though? Are you small in height?

You are on the brink of craziness? Hmmmmmmmm…. I get told that a lot though I don’t feel I am. Pisses me off. Hmmmm…. Haha that is pretty random. I have a friend (barely have friends tbh) who Is so random at times, fun, and a total diva at other times. He can be so smart, then all of a sudden ask me something so serious and enigmatic about life or etc, then actually just say “cherry” afterward, pretty much letting me know he just cut the cheese. I do that too though so we’re both crazy I suppose. But I’ve been know to have more of a “case” unfortunately. I’m told that. How is that supposed to help with my self-esteem? I’ve taken much of that most of my life, it just really affects me. I can’t even look a person in the eye anymore. And 7 time zones away? Damn.
Holidays are cool. Official and unofficial. It is stupid in my opinion to hate on any holiday. They all have their innocent perks. Well…. Some people condemn because of our nature to condemn and hate. Jealousy isn’t taught, it is formed in the mind. Some teach to be judgemental but one thing you can’t teach is hate or jealousy or envy. It’s in people. Guh… but yeah… people who are taught that is just silly" ---------- [I know i said a lot of stupid stuff and mixed things up. It's the first one I sent, then this one, then the comment bellow it :/. I hope i didn't offend you or anything. I'm sorry about all this. ]

envy. It’s in people. Guh… but yeah… people who are taught that is just silly.
Oh! Well online? Hmph… people can go on anonymous online, well hidden. They can easily act online what they can’t do online, act high and might and get away with it. It’s a beneficial thing of the internet. It’s the place where lifeless people feel alive. At least I think so. It is fun to socialize in a different way, but creating a life online is just horrible to me. And I’ve met some people who seriously need to get a life because they just go on doing pointless things online. Actually living life in it. But eh.. Can’t be blamed for some. The real world is quite intimidating. I would probably say, I am possibly not who I am in real life like I seem to be online as of now. All this I write as of now is my mind… writing to a message box… having much time to think of what to say… ability to edit. People can manipulate themselves easily. This isn’t that available in reality. Reality….. I am one who is hard to understand. I can’t look you straight in the eye, I think slow. The environment around me comes out. I am from the… “hood”, if you understand. I cuss sometimes frequently. I try to make people laugh, and usually fail. I run out of things to say with strangers. I’m quiet. I try to be nice & positive but I could be the most dirty minded if I wanted. Some people think of me as crazy…some intimidating… some ugly…..some dumb…some crazy…. some a smartass. I’m told that I don’t talk and can’t be talked to or I get confidence/energy and I get told I talk too much. It’s always all this. It’s slowly taken my mind apart. This is truly what is me. There is only a few people that truly accept me in reality. But online…. You wouldn’t see that. You can’t. You can almost certainly be the person you dream of being online but not in reality. People who have no “life” fall in love with that. I have been told I am nice and such a great person but they don’t know me or I know them. It can never truly be that way. Only when you have met me, can you really state that. Most of things online is fake. Some is an overblown aspect of someone. I meet great people online but I should refrain myself from it. I truly wish I knew those… and you in real life. It would be real. And for one, the paranoia of ‘creeps” which I despise would be gone… and two I would be truly knowing you. You….. Not a message box…. Or a cute dog sticking its tongue out. Plus I would know how you look like because that is what getting to know someone is about. Being involved online too much like I’ve known some to be just makes a burlesque persona of ourselves. Whether all this this I have written is disgusting and negative or positive and significant is really what describes my mind. It is what it is. But I can’t express myself like I want to. I feel so trapped sometimes.

And…. Haha…. I would say, it wouldn’t be a bad thing to say… you are far from being girly aren’t you?

Nope…. Never seen a doggy that looks like him till now. It’s cool though. Everyone makes out some doggies to look like someone they know. I know a doggy who I say looks like my auntie because it’s got the same afro as her. I’ll think of telling him If he is in a good mood and I happen to have the picture. Wow.. If it is hard for a turtle to live 200 years…. That is pretty wild… 700 years. Where are they now? It would be interesting to see 700 year old bones. You know…………. There were some who supposedly lived for 1,000 years, and a king who reigned for 72,000 years….. So 7,000? That’s nothing. Haha. And oh cool! You were born that year!? Awesome! It’s great to speak to those from that year. I’m used to 95, 96 and 97. Yay! And you should try mini golf more often. It’s so fun.
And it was nice …. Getting to know you. J Take care, daring. And yeah, I’ll see you around.
Till next time! :D xx

Hey! Haha. I’m fine. Thanks for asking. And you?

Hah, yeah. That is sometimes the case with my characters. But then again, maybe I didn’t like them in the first place and found a better replacements. That… is actually a cry that happens a lot in the real world. It can happen with people as well. And sure… we do forget that life is in fact too short. We oversee everything so much. You, never know when exactly will be the end for something. Plus we never enjoy the little things sometimes. Especially from people, which makes us forget and take things in vain. I know of that far too well.
Haha, any gnome would be lucky to be with you. You already sound like a great companion for one. And boots? Haha I understand though. I love animals as well. I have far too many in my room. (two dogs) and another in another room. He would be in my room as well but well…… long story. He’s a douche.

Hahaha I suppose so. Or maybe it looks like they’re made out of pudding because they just simply have pudding rubbed all over them. Hahaha I hope I didn’t give you nightmares. And me too! I read words from the dictionary but I never remember them. To me, it is quite pitiful. I am using that just to assure myself a advancement but only temporary. It does not compare discovering a word somewhere else besides the dictionary, getting intrigued by it, and looking it up in the dictionary to gain a better understanding of it. It’s the only way I can place it in my mind with permanent glue. I discovered the word secular because of you. I took interest to it, studied it and now I know it means something not related to religion/spiritual. Would have been different had I just “read” it off the dictionary IMO.

Hmmm.. Sure. I fell I should read the bible. But I hear so many stories about it. It just….. Terrifies me a bit. I’ve heard of sacrifices, plenty of death, and even incest on it. I would like to read just to see if they are wrong and exaggerating , but I yet I fear they might be telling the truth. I’ve never read the bible. Just a bit of it. Genesis was the only part of it I think. I don’t know whether reading it will change me…. Maybe. Possibly. But I feel I am still heavily enlightened, regardless of not involving myself in those sort of stuff. My views of things are different I suppose. And hey! ….. You never know…. Maybe you are in my happy place, haha. Jk. Cool, you look just like a drawing I did a while ago. It has arms, legs, a body, dark dark brown eyes with hair. :DD haha jk. Well I suppose that helps…. Except I can’t help think of random people or celebrities. But 12 or 14? Really? And you’re 17? Hmmmm… that is very interesting. They say I look like 21... Since I was 16. So I was “legal age” to drink in many peoples eyes for 3 years now and not once have I taken advantage of it. J I once got a happy meal. I just wanted a cool toy. The meal left me happy. 12 though? Are you small in height?

You are on the brink of craziness? Hmmmmmmmm…. I get told that a lot though I don’t feel I am. Pisses me off. Hmmmm…. Haha that is pretty random. I have a friend (barely have friends tbh) who Is so random at times, fun, and a total diva at other times. He can be so smart, then all of a sudden ask me something so serious and enigmatic about life or etc, then actually just say “cherry” afterward, pretty much letting me know he just cut the cheese. I do that too though so we’re both crazy I suppose. But I’ve been know to have more of a “case” unfortunately. I’m told that. How is that supposed to help with my self-esteem? I’ve taken much of that most of my life, it just really affects me. I can’t even look a person in the eye anymore. And 7 time zones away? Damn.
Holidays are cool. Official and unofficial. It is stupid in my opinion to hate on any holiday. They all have their innocent perks. Well…. Some people condemn because of our nature to condemn and hate. Jealousy isn’t taught, it is formed in the mind. Some teach to be judgemental but one thing you can’t teach is hate or jealousy or envy. It’s in people. Guh… but yeah… people who are taught that is just silly.
Oh! Well online? Hmph… people can go on anonymous online, well hidden. They can easily act online what they can’t do online, act high and might and get away with it. It’s a beneficial thing of the internet. It’s the place where lifeless people feel alive. At least I think so. It is fun to socialize in a different way, but creating a life online is just horrible to me. And I’ve met some people who seriously need to get a life because they just go on doing pointless things online. Actually living life in it. But eh.. Can’t be blamed for some. The real world is quite intimidating. I would probably say, I am possibly not who I am in real life like I seem to be online as of now. All this I write as of now is my mind… writing to a message box… having much time to think of what to say… ability to edit. People can manipulate themselves easily. This isn’t that available in reality. Reality….. I am one who is hard to understand. I can’t look you straight in the eye, I think slow. The environment around me comes out. I am from the… “hood”, if you understand. I cuss sometimes frequently. I try to make people laugh, and usually fail. I run out of things to say with strangers. I’m quiet. I try to be nice & positive but I could be the most dirty minded if I wanted. Some people think of me as crazy…some intimidating… some ugly…..some dumb…some crazy…. some a smartass. I’m told that I don’t talk and can’t be talked to or I get confidence/energy and I get told I talk too much. It’s always all this. It’s slowly taken my mind apart. This is truly what is me. There is only a few people that truly accept me in reality. But online…. You wouldn’t see that. You can’t. You can almost certainly be the person you dream of being online but not in reality. People who have no “life” fall in love with that. I have been told I am nice and such a great person but they don’t know me or I know them. It can never truly be that way. Only when you have met me, can you really state that. Most of things online is fake. Some is an overblown aspect of someone. I meet great people online but I should refrain myself from it. I truly wish I knew those… and you in real life. It would be real. And for one, the paranoia of ‘creeps” which I despise would be gone… and two I would be truly knowing you. You….. Not a message box…. Or a cute dog sticking its tongue out. Plus I would know how you look like because that is what getting to know someone is about. Being involved online too much like I’ve known some to be just makes a burlesque persona of ourselves. Whether all this this I have written is disgusting and negative or positive and significant is really what describes my mind. It is what it is. But I can’t express myself like I want to. I feel so trapped sometimes.

And…. Haha…. I would say, it wouldn’t be a bad thing to say… you are far from being girly aren’t you?

Nope…. Never seen a doggy that looks like him till now. It’s cool though. Everyone makes out some doggies to look like someone they know. I know a doggy who I say looks like my auntie because it’s got the same afro as her. I’ll think of telling him If he is in a good mood and I happen to have the picture. Wow.. If it is hard for a turtle to live 200 years…. That is pretty wild… 700 years. Where are they now? It would be interesting to see 700 year old bones. You know…………. There were some who supposedly lived for 1,000 years, and a king who reigned for 72,000 years….. So 7,000? That’s nothing. Haha. And oh cool! You were born that year!? Awesome! It’s great to speak to those from that year. I’m used to 95, 96 and 97. Yay! And you should try mini golf more often. It’s so fun.
And it was nice …. Getting to know you. J Take care, daring. And yeah, I’ll see you around.
Till next time! :D xx

I just forget about it because there is no point.

And oh! I wanted to ask… do you have e-mail? Like…. Well I tend to ask this to people I like. :P i just really like you. Ahh no never mind. No biggie. And im sure you noticed the shortness in this message. I am gunna go somewhere in a bit so I rushed things, sorry. But It was nice messaging you. Take care! J And see you next time.

Ahh yeah. And I actually have a game I recently bought and I honestly can’t help feel that I am getting bored of it. I feel guilty. But yet again… there is the horrible fact of getting tired of something living. And yet like always we will take it for granted until we get a taste of what its like to be without it. It can’t be helped sometimes. It’s the horrible side of things.Haha ahh yes Gary. I remember of a King of the Hill episode with lawn gnomes. I can say that Gary will be very lucky. : ) And well I wouldn’t say I have no musical talent…. Just no instruments. Haha. Aww that’s so cool! Haha, dogs must want to sing with you then, haha. And ehhhhhh… it was a joke kind of thing. Uhhh.. Yes it was cowboys fighting over pudding……… gay cowboys. And haha I have thought of the possibilites… I’d just rather find words on my own than read the dictionary. It was more of a worthy way to learn. I only refer to the dictionary when I forget a word.
And I am so grateful we have rulers and I only have to go through the darn subject for a few months more now. And those people are mathematicians. I certainly don’t want to be that. And haha, well I suppose it makes me feel good that I am not the only one.
But you haven’t opened it in that long? Hah, well I’d say it isn’t as big a crime as mines. I havent opened the Bible in like a year? Maybe two? Well opened yes, read no unfortunately. Haven’t even read halfway through. But oh, do you get any hard times because of it? And well you shouldn’t come off that way unless you really do do it, haha. I think its wrong to consider someone different becase of a bible they carry around.
Uhhh… picture you? Well I don’t really know how you look like to be honest. But…..you’re my happy place? Haha I have no idea what to imagine.
Ehh… my friend is actually coming around though, yay! He going from his black phase to his asian phase. So OMG more stuff to handle from him. And hahaha green dreads. I should suggest that to my friend. And sure Valentines is special IMO. If it is a challenge, then it would completely show just your whole standpoint in the relationship. I think it’s a nice holiday as well as all the other. To bad people condemn for silly reasons and some valid reasons. It really could be fun. But it’s probably the reason why most babies are born in the end of year. How original, haha.
And people talk to you and overlook you or ignore you? And they have to try to speak with you? That sounds horrible! Not getting spoken to is one thing but constantly getting told off. I wouldn’t let that happen. Or rather prevent that from happening. I go through the same but I bring it upon myself. I dislike when others have to go through it. And the will we have certainly is that meter in how much you are willing to help.
And haha those emo boys. Ican assure you some of them aren’t even them. They just get a boy with an emo hair, post it, join and viola you just get comment overload. I think it is so retarded to do that. How does someone become great because of their look? But it becomes amusing. And it really brings into mind just how simple minded people can be. I get disappointed sometimes.
Haha im sure he would. Especially taking that hes such a hot head, and he has heart disease. He would LOVE to hear that haha. Ehh, he’d be flattered he is associated to darth Vader in some way. And 103?! Ive heard of 118. But jeez! That isn’t old. That’s ancient! Haha. That is dead age for so many. Hmm… but her being sharp is very interesting.
And baseball had a nice run in the 90’s though. And golf is so boring to watch. I might play it though. Omg yeah! There is a mini golf course that has glow in the dark golf balls and cool lighting. Its awesome! But the pine tree thing is pretty creative. It marks a change from usual things. And it can certainly help you in writing. J I want to do very unique phrases like that.
And ive had that before. Its ridiculous. I call them crazy, I am just stating my opinion. And I tell them that. If they still agree, I just forget about it because there is no point.

And oh! I wanted to ask… do you have e-mail? Like…. Well I tend to ask this to people I like. :P Ahh no never mind. No biggie. And im sure you noticed the shortness in this message. I was gunna have somewhere to go in a bit so I rushed things, sorry. But It was nice messaging you. Take care! J And see you next time.

Yeah, there is a time to speak up. I mean jeez, I’ve tried to be nice sometimes and its been taken advantage of. Its why ive just been so cautious to even try that now. Hmm.. Well I would say it is a bit crazy with her not getting the idea on friend request. And yeah, we can’t exactly be feeling guilty about things. Or else we would always be guilty and mopey. All we can do is offer the only help we can. My friend who acts so mopey has to acknowledge that. And ahh yes. I could have lived not knowing it. I might have been….. Pretty disappointed had that happened, haha. J

Pfft, used that can realize and would still be content and forgive because he’s/she’s hot. :/ They never learn.

Haha, oh jeez. I hate staring at people. I would be wondering why youre staring at me if youre under the spotlight hahaha. And haha thanks! Talking to you really did make me feel better. :D I understood those…. A bit. And haha I still have yet to show my uncle that picture. I would love to tell him, you’d look so cute in a darth vader costume, haha. Bongo… haha. Cute. And well old is reaching 100? 100 is like ancient. That’s a whole century.

And ahh it’s ok. At least now you now the real teams in baseball hahaha. OMG. Only softball? Well ahh.. I would admit baseball has been on the downlow after the homerun record chase and the steroid scandal. I love those sports as well. I like all sports excpet for maybe golf. But I love minigolf! :D
And aww, well thanks! This was a great message to respond to as well. It isn’t gibber. You shouldn’t say that. I’ve rarely seen that from you except for maybe is you mention a pine tree out of nowhere, haha. But it’s rare. Trust me. And thanks! I really do love it. So I really wish I could be a part of it. It really bugs me when people say “why baseball? It sucks.” Its their opinion. I could care less, for I love it, and it isn’t meant for adrenaline meatheads. J haha yet again.. Just don’t mention it. It’s not gibberish to me whatsoever. It’s interesting stuff. I love it all.

Well… I mean… I suppose so. There will always be that dose inside you that originally cause you love something, except it’s been shriveled up to a small little dose of love. If that makes sense? Haha. Like, maybe a bad example but I can buy a video game and at some point I don’t love it as much anymore. Except I can still play it, I know it, I feel it and all, it just takes a huge effort to have me play again. But hey, I never forget what was it that had me in love in the first place. Hmmm…. Never seen a lawn gnome before. Haha well no, I know what you mean. I once had no ideas and thought of cowboys and pudding. I just get an idea, I keep it in mind ignore all else, then write it on paper. There have been times where I had a nice rhythm going in my head of music, but :/ not being able to find a way to record it because I can’t play an instrument really did me in. I could do it by mouth but I would sound really stupid.

Geometry is my biggest enemy. It’s pointless even for math. Theorems are the worst! I for one would vote to abolish proofs. I would simply say well, firs base is 50 yards away from 2nd. And they are an even diamond because both are in 120 degree angle. Or whatevers not no, why is 1st the same as 3rd. Oh well easy, with addition postulate segment, theorem 2-11, refection property, and substitution property and yadda yadda yadda, you can find the answer. It is horrible. Who in the world would do that? It just makes things complicated IMO. I think all we maybe need is a handy ruler, not no theorems. Sigh, thanks. I will need it. They might end up labeling me as incompetent in this darn subject.

Hmm… well yeah. I can see how the christain thing would attract that sort of attention. Especially in these days. Well a little bit too much of something might do that. But ehh, even then, I think it is no reason to be saying such things to you. You walk around with the bible? But they would be horrible to do that. I am ofet seen with…….. Well I don’t really get seen with anything often so I guess I get told off because of it. :/

Haha, my happy place. Never thought of that. I wonder what it is.

Well my friend I would say just need to look in the mirror. Both are smart alecks but my friend who acts black actually has more of a right because he actually knows what he’s saying. And is in fact smart without trying to act it. The other one is just a stone cold loony who relishes in trying to broadcast this message that “im better than you” when that person honestly needs a huge reality check, and a psychiatrist. Reading a dictionary, knowing “big” words doesn’t make you better automatically. Anyone can simply do that. Absolutely anyone. Guh, I swear I actually get disturbed when I think of that person. My “black” friend makes me laugh though, haha. I really want to see him with dreads. It would make my decade.

Well yeah, but valentines day makes it sort of fun in that whach yo ass gunna do for me today? Haha that sort of thing. Because honestly, I love you absolutely every day of the year isn’t exactly a great idea. Many can see the negative side of it but I think it’s quite fun. Unfortunately it can be a test as well. And hmmm… yeah I suppose that is maybe true. But 1) I slightly exaggerated, a bit less than 2 weeks and 2) this was an online thing. And this so called relationship only lasted like a bit more than a month I think? Well, based from what was written. And ah, that was like a week ago. Now, I got some offline message saying there is a new boyfriend whom is pretty much online. . :/ I really dont care or wanna know that, why am I getting those message. :/ And well…. How did you know this person was underage or not to consider it child pornography? Brrr…yeah, jeez. I wouldn’t worry about that though. But that is an offer that seems open for people because I think there is gunna be another winner. I’d rather not speak of that person anymore., guh. Is quite despicable in my mind. And I think we are all a bit of everything. It is just a how much of it are you.

Yeah, there is a time to speak up. I mean jeez, I’ve tried to be nice sometimes and its been taken advantage of. Its why ive just been so cautious to even try that now. Hmm.. Well I would say it is a bit crazy with her not getting the idea on friend request. And yeah, we can’t exactly be feeling guilty about things. Or else we would always be guilty and mopey. All we can do is offer the only help we can. My friend who acts so mopey has to acknowledge that. And ahh yes. I could have lived not knowing it. I might have been….. Pretty disappointed had that happened, haha. J

Pfft, used that can realize and would still be content and forgive because he’s/she’s hot. :/ They never learn.

Haha, oh jeez. I hate staring at people. I would be wondering why youre staring at me if youre under the spotlight hahaha. And haha thanks! Talking to you really did make me feel better. :D I understood those…. A bit. And haha I still have yet to show my uncle that picture. I would love to tell him, you’d look so cute in a darth vader costume, haha. Bongo… haha. Cute. And well old is reaching 100? 100 is like ancient. That’s a whole century.

And ahh it’s ok. At least now you now the real teams in baseball hahaha. OMG. Only softball? Well ahh.. I would admit baseball has been on the downlow after the homerun record chase and the steroid scandal. I love those sports as well. I like all sports excpet for maybe golf. But I love minigolf! :D
And aww, well thanks! This was a great message to respond to as well. It isn’t gibber. You shouldn’t say that. I’ve rarely seen that from you except for maybe is you mention a pine tree out of nowhere, haha. But it’s rare. Trust me. And thanks! I really do love it. So I really wish I could be a part of it. It really bugs me when people say “why baseball? It sucks.” Its their opinion. I could care less, for I love it, and it isn’t meant for adrenaline meatheads. J haha yet again.. Just don’t mention it. It’s not gibberish to me whatsoever. It’s interesting stuff. I love it.

act like their slaves to try and impress. He won't even say anything to back himself up.And yeah, plenty of people will always have it bad, or worse than others. But nothing we can really do. Some may need the help, but the only true help anyone can get is from themselves. Some people can begin with a bad life but can get out of that life through dedication, and a person who has it pretty good can easily fall out of it too. It's all on themselves. We can't fret. Just lend a helping hand if we can, but like ive learned, you can't help an alcoholic quit if they won't even try.
And oh!!! hahaha did i call you gay? haha, i did not realize! I was saying that we would look up guys. I accidentally included myself in it, when im a guy. But it's good to know that you're straight, i suppose haha. :)
And yeah. that's being shallow. And some of those hot guys can be douchebags and yet on they continue....... because theyre hot. "its ok if hes like this........ because he's hot". Haha yeah.... heard that once.... "life is peachy".
And ahh, its ok. I'll manage. and well, this deosnt sound hypocritical at all. Trust me, i've seen hypocritical, and this is far from it. And haha yeah! I prefer to stare down. And it bugs me that they always seem to be staring at something..... wrong. You feel like you have something on your face. And nah, i just have hearing problems, haha.
And yeah, it really does. because like ive mentioned ive been getting pissed off and exhausted, and this message pretty much projects that. Sorry if it showed a bit too much. It would explain why i wrote too much. And if im happy hyper, i write even longer with even more gibberish.
Haha, yeah. That dog is funny cute. Haha, he looks kind of like my uncle Martin. haha thats so cute. Snickors. I named one of my dogs munchies because he looked so skinny when we got him and i could tell he was going to have the munchies once we got home. And well technically, my dogs are nearing 100 years in doggy years, i think.
And well sure! If you can find it. If its not a hassle that is.
yep! that fiction of fans. haha
OMG you know all the wrong teams!! hahaha. It's all about the cardinals and dodgers. hahaha. But thats awesome. i dont know any girls that play baseball. And wow... that was like a common thing from like the early 1900's. I cold just imagine it from that time.
Thanks. And haha, like i said its nothing like that to me. Dont worry. This whole message was more of a serious unhumorous nag. So i really hope you forgive me for that. And haha, its a pleasure to meet you too. And haha my name is tbh richard. Ricardo is the spanish version of it. My auntie used to call me that. And haha, thanks so much for that. I really hope its true. I might have a small time job at dodgers stadium, but just being near a baseball stadium so much makes me feel really good. It has a beautiful view of the city of angels.

of course. and in my mind, people tend to lose passion for something. So like, it can at some point possibly become labor too. and haha yeah, it's like the same thing with me. I want to write but have no ideas, and then i get an idea but i lack the need to want to write. And well that would explain the youtube thing haha. It just got transformed halfway through last year.
:/ Hahaha, and it's fine. It isn't all that accurate. And math? Well I wouldn't have known. I like math a bit, but i was just introduced to geometry and now i loathe it. Proofs are the most stupidest things i've ever had to do for school work. EVER. I'm on the brink of failing because of it. You must be on algebra cause that was a bit fun, geometry just plain sucks.
Wait people actually give you talk about being stupid or close-minded? Those assholes! That's just a horrible thing to be doing to anyone. Though i do admit i tell my friend he's close-minded because he likes to act black and will only involve himself in stuff mostly stereotyped black guys love. Not being racist here, it's actually what he's been doing. He can barely grow hair but he wants to get some dreads. And he only wants to listen to reggae and easily criticizes everything else. I'm like OMG dude quit acting black. It's his choice and all but he gets a bit annoying with it. Sigh, as you can tell, many things have been annoying me lately. It's like i can't get away from it. And that is so true. Only thing that will be affected is you, not them. Ugh, jeez... but this person, by all means I swear was one to avoid. I actually talked to this person for like half a year because they wouldn't lay off and I for sme reason I would just respond, and thought needed some help big time. This person preached everyone had an opinion yet would so easily say there is no god if someone said there was, thought marriage was stupid and the governments way to control, valentine was an idiotic money making scam (though i have thought of that, i still think the concept is alright) which had no point cause you could show love anytime everytime, thought sports was idiotic and so dumb and pointless as to why people watch people do simple stuff and get paid millions (easier said than done), and just so many things. Jeez, plus that chick acted so suicidal just for attention, and acted like a femminist yet acted like a..... (in lack of a better word) "slut". Sending stuff and crap.... and actually trying to create a situation to do that. Jesus, like i said i only spoke with that person because she seriously need help, and had to lie just to satisfy unfortunately, then as soon as i told her to seriously get away from me, she posts stuff, crap and lies, about me online and ummm... creates other profiles to try talk to me acting as someone else. It was sort of scary. I get paranoid of others being that person now. And it turns out right after i deleted, she began talking to another dude, supposedly fell in love after like 2 weeks (she would use that on me), sent nudie pics, then "broke up" and bleh. I know this cause this person sent me a message just recently telling me that, and wants to talk to me again. *facepalm* and this is all on the internet thing. i never say anything bad about people but that person was a smart aleck, and quite frankly the most idiotic person i'll ever meet. Guh... if you meet anyone even close to having some screws loose, please avoid them. First sign off, something really crazy is a red flag. I can tell that you're a really good person, and you'd want to help but jeez, these people take advantage. All you end up doing is making yourself as messed up, evil, or however you can put it as them. They taint. I Learned that the hard way. Now i have a psychopath that i have to hide from online.
I honestly doubt you hurt people on purpose. lots of people do that. But I think you will have to learn to do it with intent. Some people will sometimes never get the idea. A friend of mine is too nice and he is taken advantage of. He gets insulted, and still he tries to act like their slaves to try and impress. He won't even say anything to back himself up.And yeah, plenty of people will always have it bad, or worse than others. But nothing we can really do. Some may need the help, but the only true help anyone can get is from themselves. Some people can begin with a bad life but can get out of that life through dedication, and a person who has it pretty good can easily fall out of it too. It's all on themselves. We can't fret. Just lend a helping hand if we can, but like ive learned, you can't help an alcoholic quit if they won't even try.
And oh!!! hahaha did i call you gay? haha, i did not realize! I was saying that we would look up guys. I accidentally included myself in it, when im a guy. But it's good to know that you're straight, i suppose haha. :)
And yeah. that's being shallow. And some of those hot guys can be douchebags and yet on they continue....... because theyre hot. "its ok if hes like this........ because he's hot". Haha yeah.... heard that once.... "life is peachy".
And ahh, its ok. I'll manage. and well, this deosnt sound hypocritical at all. Trust me, i've seen hypocritical, and this is far from it. And haha yeah! I prefer to stare down. And it bugs me that they always seem to be staring at something..... wrong. You feel like you have something on your face. And nah, i just have hearing problems, haha.
And yeah, it really does. because like ive mentioned ive been getting pissed off and exhausted, and this message pretty much projects that. Sorry if it showed a bit too much. It would explain why i wrote too much. And if im happy hyper, i write even longer with even more gibberish.
Haha, yeah. That dog is funny cute. Haha, he looks kind of like my uncle Martin. haha thats so cute. Snickors. I named one of my dogs munchies because he looked so skinny when we got him and i could tell he was going to have the munchies once we got home. And well technically, my dogs are nearing 100 years in doggy years, i think.
And well sure! If you can find it. If its not a hassle that is.
yep! that fiction of fans. haha
OMG you know all the wrong teams!! hahaha. It's all about the cardinals and dodgers. hahaha. But thats awesome. i dont know any girls that play baseball. And wow... that was like a common thing from like the early 1900's. I cold just imagine it from that time.
Thanks. And haha, like i said its nothing like that to me. Dont worry. This whole message was more of a serious unhumorous nag. So i really hope you forgive me for that. And haha, its a pleasure to meet you too. And haha my name is tbh richard. Ricardo is the spanish version of it. My auntie used to call me that. And haha, thanks so much for that. I really hope its true. I might have a small time job at dodgers stadium, but just being near a baseball stadium so much makes me feel really good. It has a beautiful view of the city of angels.

Thanks. (:

It doesnt bother.
Oh! I posted the pic! And haha, snickors..... i havent eaten snickers chocoalate bar in a while. I have 3 dogs that are about 5, 7, and 10. Theyre old. And ahhh... oh. I thought fan fiction was making a fiction from another fiction.
Thanks! :D And who knows. Maybe we're made for something. Maybe we all have the opportunity to choose what that is. All in all, i think it is up to you and the dedication to make it happen. (unfortunately there are those robbed from things because of disorders). And wait, you don't know any baseball teams? haha... and oy.... something grandfather wasn't and then it cut off. And yeah, they do! I wouldnt have written so much if they didn't, which i beg pardon for doing.
And wow... well that's something.... i feel flattered.... no.. rather special. haha, that is a very baseball-ish name. Im sure you already know by now..... me llamo Ricardo. :D

I like writing a lot as well. But I suppose, if I wouldn't be here if i had so much free time on my hands. And well you can't call something that you love doing labor. If it's free of rule, and obligations and all. If it isn't independent, it becomes labor in my mind. Hah, but even then, it's like if you still calmly feel the warmth from the fireplace on the hearth, then no, but if you are suddenly scrambling to keep the fading flame up so you could feel it, then yes. If this made any sense. Haha, i tend to say jibberish like this.
You never knew youtube before the thumbs? Whoa. I guess you were rarely on the internet around that time. I knew about youtube like around 2007. Thumbs were introduced late last year. I suppose im used to technology. And only two males? wow. Well that would make it 98% now wouldn't it? :) And you've mad someone angry? Wow. Haha. Well I have made someone angry online... but what are you to do when that person is ridiculously impossible to work with? Nothing... and it's always your fault to them. :/ those type of people annoy the hell out of me, always have to point the finger at someone but themselves. And hmm... good point. Anything that is meant no harm could unintentionally offend so many though. I don't really like using that word either, but it's how the folks call it. It's horrible to remind someone of such a thing, but then again, if the simple usage of "comment raped" seriously disturbs someone, then they might need help. Like... well.. let's see..... hmmm.... i'd rather use that childish term and if it bugs them, have them let me know it bugs them for whatever reason. It would let me know not to steer on anything of that subject, and honestly, maybe it would actually help make their spirits bold with it. Well i don't know anything about that subject, and im a guy so i would have no idea, nor do i have a right to speak of the subject so confidentally, but who knows? Maybe bottling those thoughts up has drastic effects on the mind. Because face it, something will come by that will remind you of that no matter what, so why not confront it through something innocent like that term, have it piss you off, promise yourself you'll be stronger, it won't happen again.... i know i don't make sense but bottling up is bad IMO. I'm sometimes reminded of bad stuff, but it has been so common now, i feel like it isn't dragging me down anymore because i know it now. Everything about it. Know thy enemy. You must go through darkness before you immerse yourself in the light. :/ But like i said.... i dont know what i say. Some people have it like bad bad bad.
And haha well of course! "oh he's cute, i want to be friends with him". "eh, he's whatevers, wait for hotter". But ehhhhh... well I think it just is in our nature. Just like how we would maybe look for a guy that would interest us, (well you or someone else, im not gay haha) we singlehandedly tend to discard many and all that stuff for many differing reasons. No one is far from being judgemental or a hypocrite. It's just in us. In everything unfortunately. It's all only a matter of.... how HIGH ARE YOU with it?
yeah, maybe. well reading a long comment is one thing but haha, taking the hours to respond is the killer. And haha no problem. I know.... a bit about bottling things up and such.
And that sounds nice. haha. Well to be honest, i don't really know how to pray. I used to but that was as a small kid. Now it's a mystery to me. Never was big on it. i tried but eh. There was too many things going on at that time that distanced me from it. And well i mean, im not a great talker either. For one, my mind processes so slow so i struggle and people have thought ill of me. I speak too low sometimes, have no idea what to say, and i actually tend not to be able to hear sometimes, haha. But most of all, i can't stare anybody in the eyes. Not completely. And that affects me too much. Of course i'm able to really express myself in writing. I feel sometimes it's the only way now. sigh. And ah, dont worry about it. It doesnt bother.
Oh! I posted the pic! And haha, snickors..... i havent eaten snickers chocoalate bar in a while. I have 3 dogs that are about 5, 7, and 10. Theyre old. And ahhh... oh. I thought fan fiction was making a fiction from another fiction.
Thanks! :D And who knows. Maybe we're made for something. Maybe we all have the opportunity to choose what that is. All in all, i think it is up to you and the dedication to make it happen. (unfortunately there are those robbed from things because of disorders). And wait, you don't know any baseball teams? haha... and oy.... something grandfather wasn't and then it cut off. And yeah, they do! I wouldnt have written so much if they didn't, which i beg pardon for doing.
And wow... well that's something.... i feel flattered.... no.. rather special. haha, that is a very baseball-ish name. Im sure you already know by now..... me llamo Ricardo. :D