I'm trying to focus on school but its hard :/ I have mid terms the 18-21st n I need to do well :/ Thanks, I just don't want this to be the end because I love him so damn much and we had tons of things we always wanted to do and I don't want them to be past dreams, I want them to come true.
He's 2 1//2 years older than me, he's a freshman at a community college. We started dating may of my freshman year which was his junior year in high school. I remember I was worried about him starting college. I remember I asked him if it'd ruin us and he said no. I just hope he hasn't met anyone new that he likes :/ He told me that there isn't another girl but tht doesn't mean there won't be and I can't compete with that :( He didn't start to change until the last 2 weeks of our relationship. Because it was at the end, I don't think he himself permanently changed, it was just he didn't want to be in the relationship anymore n he was getting weird with it. He told me it wasn't a spur of the moment thing, which I believe. He told me that he guesses its just a break n that its possible we could b tgether again but I'm not sure if he meant that or just said it to stop hurting me more. I'll only know when we meet n speak in person for sure. I really want us to end up together like we always wanted.
Thanks :/ I wish he would either realize wat he's doing and work this out or that I could somehow magically get over him even tho I don't think I can :/ I don't think anyone else is going to feel about me the way he did for so long. :/
Well he broke up with me on the 28th, 3 days after christmas n our 19 month anniversary. I tried talking to him a few times but he's being a real jerk and is ignoring me or randomly stops responding n he's treating me like I'm nothing to him, like he was never in love with me. And I'm still in love with him and want us to work :( I need to talk to him, there's a lot of thoughts in my mind bothering me, things I need to know and I told him we need to meet in person to talk and if he wants me out of his life after one last time of seeing each other, then I can't stop him but I want a goodbye in person. I went to hell and back for him and he always promised me I was his forever and that he'd never hurt me or that I'd never lose him. such lies :( He's been ignoring me and I cry every night about it :/