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you're right davey boi. i just got off the phone with josh. he said he wants me back and i told him to give me til monday to gather my thoughts. he said thats fine and he'll wait.

i am not thankful for much......i guess but anyway its ok if you don't reply very soon bcuz i will be busy.......... then i will be unbusy :P

no...i made a huge mistake. josh and i, we were bigger than everything. i told him the truth. he said he loves me and hung up. now i'm stuck with lance, who i dont trust. i miss josh. he's everything to me. and he's gone. he calls sometimes. but i cant talk to him. i always end up crying. hearing his voice and knowing i cant have him back hurts soo bad. lance thinks he loves me to. i've gotten myself in a huge mess. at least i told josh the truth about the other guys. now i dont havta lie to him. he wants me back. but he hasnt asked me yet. i love josh. i think its supposed to be me and him not me and lance. i'm never going to get over josh. going out with lance was supposed to help me move on but it only makes me miss josh more. when me and lance are together i cant help but think that josh is supposed to be holding my hand, not lance. i really screwed up. i think i gonna break up with lance and stay single. guys are nothing but heartache man. im sick of hurting....

sorry i havnt been on for a few days :( i was busy

hello! nuttin much is happening around here:P what about you?

well, i've been at school and dance practice. tomorrow is junior skip day but i can't do it. *sigh* o well. josh (the 4yr bf) called. turns out he's been working weekends. got his shifts changed and couldnt find the time to call. so it wasnt over. and now i believe i'm going to make a huge mistake. when i tried to tell him that we needed to spend time apart, he cried and everything. (he's not a wuss, he loves me) *tear* when i realized how much he really does care, i finalized my decision. in order to have a completely honest relationship, i have to tell him the truth about everything, right? so i have to tell him i cheated on him twice. what he does/says decides if i stay with lance. i love josh tho. this will be, ironically, the most honest mistake i will make ever. i might lose him for real this time. he's supposed to call today, and that's when im gonna come clean. i hope im doing the right thing dave. im scared.

this will be my first year for prom, so yea. and im goin with lance. (of course) and i'm not even worried about the 4 yr. bf. it's his problem he didnt have the balls to call me and break it off. and its sad he wouldnt answer the phone and let me see what's goin on. yea, lance is something. lol. we've been friends since my 10th grade year and he said he's loved me since but never had the chance to ask me out b/c he didnt want to impose on my "relationship". (i put that in quotes b/c it wasnt much of a relationship in the first place) maybe he'll treat me better. (hopefully) kk davey boi...guess i'll t2yl. xoxo

its good when you're with someone
but when your alone and freezing it sucks lol xD

yuh lol
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eh
a lot of stupid crap ;D
lmao

trust me that happening isnt the worste thing that would have happend to me
meh
whateverbut thank you (:

sat here and chatted ;D
Im a very lazy person

I'm about an hour from the city
you?

Suffolk?
I think lol

new york also
where in NY do you live?

ha thanks >.<
I dunno
I like to do a lot of things
Hang out with friends and stuff mainly
you?

haha
aww
your poems are really good ;D

Well, yes, but we were only counting guys who'd be interested in us as more than friends.
Yeah, well, he thought I was like 22, but even after I told him I was 16 he kept on, and I ended up be very blunt and rude then walking away.

Hi ;D

Yeah, even then I want to get out of it. Why not ship the tragic figure here?

We tied.... I would have won if the 3 gay dudes counted.

We each got 8 each... I would have gotten 11 like I said if gay men counted.
We stopped after this guy who was around 30 and looked like Davey Havok started chatting me up and giving me his number.

Ha, that kinda scared us off.