CynthiaYou asked why I did it ,well does it matter at the end of the day  my life ends just likeyours.Just coz your a cop doesn't mean you'll die any better than me but I'll tell youwhy anyway...When I was young I  was tough never laughed, never cried ,never bugged anyone, i was my own person. I did what I needed to get to the top and there I was smart, successful ,admired I had everything but...

You know that feeling inside you,thumping away reminding you life must move on?well everyday I think of you ,your eyes ,your smell your heart and most of all your mind .my heart breaks everyday like it did the first time missing you is all I have to hold onto....I sound so pathetic yet I feel I must do this ...who else will listen if not myself. Every word you said still wispers like sweet...