Yep, and he hasn't texted me or anything since. So...the only thing that annoys me is that apparently he and I can't be just friends. It's either all or nothing.
Well, here's something else to make you AWWW.....the night that I told Jacob about the article, I told him I might not do it because I was scared...and he took the time to talk me through all of it and encouraged me to do it and...it made me feel good. Though I haven't told him that the main thing I'm scared about is him reading something I've written about him. lol. I don't really care much what everyone else thinks, but his opinion matters to me....because I'm lame like that. =)
And the boy trouble worked out. I think he realized he pissed me off on Saturday and so Wednesday and Friday both he behaved himself and all was well.
I'm seeing through the bad right now....I've been asked to write an article for an online publication (not, like, a huge one, but it's a start, right?) Not only that, but Jacob--my favorite band guy--has agreed to let me write about him. He'd already promised to be my first interview. Gah, he's amazing.
I noe my school sucks it's the only food they give and I'm not gonna starve myself lol xD and yes when my mom offers pizza I gag just thinking of it lol xD
Well, I'm hoping that when I'm around them Wednesday, I can run some damage control and make it clear to everyone that I'm not with him. And, if all else fails, I'll just look at his friends and say "We're not together. We never were. And we never will be."
I guess that's true. I wouldn't trade my friends for the world....so yeah, school did do something good for me. lol. And I'll hopefully achieve my dream, thanks to school. It's just hard to look at the positives when you're stuck doing something you don't wanna do--homework--instead of enjoying free time. lol.
Okay, I can totally relate to the first part of your story about not speaking your mind often unless you're under pressure. I'm horrible about that. I keep everything in because I just can't bear to hurt people's feelings. I know I'm a sap, but hey, it happens. It also means I get walked all over AND the worst part is, I usually know that it's happening, I just can't bring myself to speak up. I have that going on right now, in fact. Only, in my defense, I did speak up for myself at the beginning of this situation....I told this guy that I wasn't interested in him that way. He SWORE we could just be friends and hang out and stuff, but then last night, we went out with some friends and he waited until the guy I DO have a crush on got there and kissed me in front of him. I was FURIOUS, but I didn't want to make a big deal in front of everyone, especially not my crush. I'll be with them all again this coming Wednesday and I intend to make it very clear that I'm NOT with him.
Anyways. lol. and now after MY long and boring story =) .... Wow. I can imagine that a church is not a good place to have that happen. On the other hand, that was probably the most exciting thing they'd seen in, like, forever. lol.
We live in the middle of nowhere, too, but....no homeschooling. Our school sucked, though. I guess all kids say that. Ah well.