, soo, everytime i come onto this website i check 2 pages, nicoles and sam's, and yeah, it hurts to know they're both gone, sam died on me, yeah, it hurt like a bitch...but i've been healing, and honestly, i can now think of her without crying, and i've finally learnt to live with it, i will go visit her family, and pay my respects to her remains, like i always knew i would, and yes, i'll cry on...

soooo, i'm done...just in general..i've honestly lost all will to just live day by day....all my relationships lost their meaning just because my baby girl died ( R.I.P. Sammy <3 ) and i seriously am having a hard time finding a reason to live...=/... my first true love died on me....my second hates my very guts and presently doesn't give two fucks about me...and the third girl is now with...