No Jade.
You don't understand.
I've fucked up a lot and almost all of them were on purpose.
It's not just me that has suffered. I've made others suffer too.
I've torn people apart and karma is coming for me.
I do not deserve love or friends. That's why I am the way I am with you.
You mean so much to me because you like ME the way I am.
I've learned that that kind of love is and never will be in my near or far future. Love is not something I deserve. It's no something I can have anymore. I've hurt to many people for that.
Jade Hunny, you are very loved. You will always be loved and don't you ever forget that because if you do then you forget me. And I love you Jade, very much.