I understand where you're coming from, I really do. There were and sometimes are days were I think... "Gee I should just end this, everyone would be better off if I wasn't here" But I guess that weren't true. There are things in this world that I hate and wonder how people can handle it. So much pressure on their shoulders. But I am not the type of girl who can just sit and cry in her room without the release of cutting.
It helped, and I wouldn't tell my family about it.
If you ever need someone to talk to, you can just message me. Because I care. And I really do want to help.
I love your work so much! It's fantastic. And I don't want you to kill yourself. In your thing up there you said "But I don't know how long I will live". Everyone goes through times that are so bad. Including me, I've been through so many hard times. And each time I felt like killing myself but I didn't. I didn't because of the future. The future can bring happiness and tears of joy.
In the future you can have children, a loving relationship and fun. But that can't happen once you leave this world. I hope you don't kill yourself. :'( You should read a story on fanfiction called "Tears Fell into the Ocean" You might relate to it.
Your stories are relatable. Especially to me who has spent so many nights crying and cutting myself. And if my walls could talk they'd blab it out to everyone too.
I think you're a terrific writer, and I believe you should share it with the world. Because you're so great. You should send them to someone who can help you by sharing it with everyone. I wish I had such talent like that.