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WastingAway. (100)

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If you hate something. Fix it.. i'd take my own advice..but it's not fixable.

March 8th, 2012 at 07:41pm

pronetobeingalone (100)

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Yeah, same here, i might exaggerate at times but i never write anything i doidnt mean at the time

March 8th, 2012 at 03:52am

WastingAway. (100)

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Sorry for that book, but just becoming a zombie is all I could do to keep myself from losing it,,

March 8th, 2012 at 03:25am

WastingAway. (100)

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So you know that feeling deep down in your chest? When a nuclear bomb is dropped and everything where your heart is completely pulverized in a devastating explosion. And before you know it you would rather be alone than near people with living beating hearts, you become a ghost of yourself. And a dead soul walking with the living. Death becomes just as welcome as sleep and pain doesn't stop. Your life becomes one big waiting game, you wait for the call or message you know deep down will never come. You wait and you wait but the pain never ends. You keep setting your alarm to wake up at 3 but the difference is you don't need it now. You automatically wake up with or without it. Energy goes out the and all you want to do is cry. But life isn't that merciful. you'll lay awake every night for a week, you won't eat for a week and then you realize that maybe you really are dying. So you start drinking bottle of water after bottle of water. Because food hurts, breathing hurts, living hurts. Your parents become concerned and you become angry because you don't want anyone to care anymore, you just want to sleep. Go to dreamland and stay there, because it's safe and warm and you don't want to lose the things it brings you. But when you wake up it hurts so much worse because a brick wall smacks into your heart at freight train speeds, reminding you that you aren't alive, that you lost the only thing you truly wanted. You give up on plans for your life and stop caring. Because your future isn't worth planning at this point, whatever happens happens. And maybe you should have always been like that. But you lie awake dead, completely dead. You haven't cried about what caused this pain because you are too numb to cry. Then you think? Karma. This is exactly what I deserve. You want to cry but can't and the pressure keeps building, one day? You are going to have a break down. And you know it isn't going to be pretty, because you don't understand how if you are this dead on the inside why you can't be this dead on the outside..but the thought that someday..probably not soon, maybe after you move, maybe she will come home. That keeps you alive. Barely but it keeps you from putting a gun to your head or swallowing a gallon of bleach. You know that deep down you will never be the same again, you won't be okay. You always asked me how I feel...this doesn't even scratch how I feel..not at all.

March 8th, 2012 at 03:02am

pronetobeingalone (100)

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That's probably the reason why it turned out to be such a good poem 'cause you believed in the words u wrote

March 8th, 2012 at 02:55am

xXWickedLovelyXx (100)

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your very welcome.. Emotional writing is a great way to write at times.. <3

March 4th, 2012 at 09:38pm

WastingAway. (100)

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Just doing my daily check...laying here, with your kick ass headphones. Wishing I could cry. But I can't, I'm scared brother. I love you. I'd say forever, but my beliefs in forever or my will to make it through the next day are a tad shaky..I am a mess:/ I'm sorry..listening to heartbreak&chasecoy...bleh..turn back the time? Yeah..I wish

March 1st, 2012 at 08:39am