Zach, I am sooo sorry that I answer now, but I read your comment under what I put on my journal, I know is been like three months, but I needed to say thanks. I felt that I wasnt alone just by that simple comment of yours.
Oh bee tee dubz I'm so much better at being a bitch now. xD I made some girl cry just by trolling her on her friend's Facebook wall. She was like 20 too. It was epic. She deserved it, however.
I wouldn't count that last time we dated as.... dating. Cuz I only said "yes" to dating you that time cuz I felt bad for you, and because I wanted to show you what it was like to love someone who doesn't love you back.
A taste of your own medecine.
Worked nicely, yeah?
Anyways. Idk if I can ever forgive you. I thought I could. Yesterday I was thinking "I think I'm ready to give him another chance.."
Today I'm thinking "Wow he fucked me over big time"
I read it even though you told me not to. I left a comment. I'm sure you'll see it.
And it was true. I'd found someone else. But it didn't work out.
Turns out I just like him cuz he bought me stuff... meh. I never even spoke to him except to ask him to buy me stuff. And then when he got intolerable I told him to get out of my life. So yeah. Me and him never got together. I've been single since our whole ordeal. Your story on here gave me an idea for a book I've wanted to write for a long time. I wonder if I'll make any money off of it. If you want to know what it's about, let me know.
It was so weird. I had a dream about you last night.
In the dream you were hiding in the woods near my house and you didn't want me to find you. And yet when I saw you, and called out to you, you came anyways.
And then we spoke and we smiled. And I tried to help you with life. And I manipulated people to be near you. And yet you pushed me away, though you never looked away from me.
You found indulgence in other girls, and yet you never looked away from me.
I don't remember much more about the dream. Except at the end I was in some sort of cage, and you were outside of it. But you wouldn't free me.
In the end. I was isolated. And I had given everything you help you get better. And be happy.
But I was caged. And you would not help me. And you would not look at me. And so I sat there in the cage and watched a man I could no longer love or feel, do things I would never be a part of, and I no longer had the strength to escape the cage or even defend myself at all because I'd given it all to him even when he was rude, manipulative, mean.
And then I woke up. And the power was out and everything was really dark.
I'm still afraid of the dark.
Just a dream, anyways.