I see talent. It doesn't mean you have to, but I do. Those words that she told you were unnecessary and unkind. You need to listen to me, okay? What you say you're going to do is the worst option. If you need to talk to someone about ANYTHING, send me a message. I'll be here to listen.
But you have so much to live for. You're an amazing writer, I can see. You have a future from your meaningful writing! Even if I can't make a difference, think of the future. Things cannot be solved by simply running away from the problem.