I think I'm going to get off of here. My head hurts from all the crying that I've done and it's made me really tired. I guess I'll talk to you tomorrow.
I used to think that things would get better. But now I feel worse than I did when I was younger and used to cut myself. I just don't see the point of life anymore.
I don't deserve shit. Sorry, but it's just how I feel right now. I'm in the middle of a fucking breakdown and I just don't know what to fucking do anymore.
It's alright... And I should get some pictures of Brian, but it's going to be hard to go through and replace the collection that I had of him and the boys. I had over 2,000 images of just Brian, so I'm thinking that it's going to take a while to get all those back. He does make me happy, but is also part of the reason why I've decided to stop writing.