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I just woke up, as well.
But, it's also like 11 am. So I have an excuse. Haha.
How are you?

haha I understand that.
my parents would kill me.Then again they would kill me if I dyed my hair red..
they such tightasses.
haha you fucking rock,you're my new hero.
My mom got married at 15.My sister got pregnant at 15. My dad made her abort it..
but I was young then.My sister and I are 9 years appart.
I think I have ADD haha I cant remember what you wrote last and I jump around.Oh well,Its pretty damn fun.
The guy I like now.. is 20.
My mom knows though,she likes him too. But he doesnt like me.But obviously it wouldnt work haha his name is Justin.
Do you have AIM?random again wow

haha yeah sXe means straightedge (also known as XXX for no drink,no smoke,no fuck) its just a way of looking at things.My dad thinks its a bad thing because the symbol is 3 X's.Go figure.
Yeah,see? Its a good thing. The first pills I was on made me bipolar. I was happy one minute then throwing things around the next.It was crazy.I almost overdosed on it god only knows how many times.The way it made me think was so wrong.
I dont think the Effexor is doing anything for me..Im ready to get off of meds completely I think.
I dunno.
I wish I could find a guy,haha that sounds so weird.
I get so confused at times..I dumped my first boyfriend because he kissed me and I didnt know him that well..that was just crazy to me haha I just want to take it slow and get to know people before they go macin on me hahahaha

I can write some good shit at times.I understand you.
Nah,I understand it though.My mom claims she only drinks because if she drinks 12 my dad can only drink 12 instead of 24..thats lame but I dunno.
Yeah,I've taken Xanex too. And days when it was really bad Ive taken Xanex and sleeping pills and pain pills. Not something I'm proud of.
I'm sXe just because my sister went through alot of shit and almost got kicked out and I see the way it makes my parents,so bitter,and I dont want to go there.
I dont know him but the way I see it just by the way he looks,Danny would be bored out of his fucking mind if you werent fucked up.Not saying anxiety attacks are fun by any means but obviously he doesnt want any other person.No one has what you have and thats what he wants.

most are canon but there are many others that are not

Yeah.
Thanks,it means alot.I need family like you.
They just..I dont know.They kicked me out of out "family night" tonight.I mean that is FUCKED if you ask me,but id rather spend time with people that like and accept me anyway.But its so confusing for me because my mom has M.S and she's bipolar like at times and she drinks too so I just see so many sides of her and I just dont understand which one is real.
Yeah,I got depressed too.I'm on Effexor now and I'm not even 16 yet.
You remind me of something I wrote once."Everyone that ever touched my heart pulled back broken fingers"

black* fingernails I mean

dude,you don't know how much that means.
My parents all but hate me because all I try to act myself. I used to be almost robotic in the way I was.It was always a show,whatever you wanted to see,I had playing. It makes me feel the best shade of awesome to have you say that and to be accepted by someone.My whole family just doesnt understand.My own grandmother wont talk to me,none of my aunts or uncles,they think because I have blank fingernails on I'm a devil worshiper.They are so closed minded it amazes me.
haha yeah,I could never write happy poetry either and all mine came out suicidal because I was so jealous of my sister.Shes grown and married and at that time had just had her first child and I became invisable at that point.I guess thats when/why I entered that stage but I dont regret it because it made me realize who I really was and what I really liked so to speak.
damn that was long haha

sweeet! yep,I've been playing almost two years now.(I probably still suckass too but I love it)
I used to could draw then that flew out the window.
It's all going in stages.I used to write poetry when I was in my 'fuck you,fuck her.fuck him.leave me the fuck alone' stage but I guess I got out of that.Now I'm kinda quiet and being homeschooled I have no friends that I acually hang out with so Im always on the computer.I like it that way though,people on the computer think Im cool somehow,in real life Im this spaztic kid that cant find what she wants haha

hahaha thats cool.Can't say I'll have something for you to read though hahaha
I hear livejournal has an assload of slash.

I acually,don't read.I know it sounds weird but I'm more of a writter.
I tried to read this book called Twilight but I quit mid way.
I can't stick with anything but writting and guitar,I'm such a loser.

sweet haha.
yeah damn schools haha Im homeschooled.God it sucks.
I feel scatterbrained(like thats new)

What kind of stuff do you like to read?

haha I dont effin know I just cant stop.Im all nasally I sound like Im from Chicago.
GRR I hate being sick too.Since Im not in school I dont get that sick anymore.

I cant get my profile the way I like,I'm too picky grr =)
Lemme know if I bother you,I've heard I'm quite the pest

-Ricky

haha hey who said nerds dont kick ass huh?
god I cant stop sneeeeeziiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing

WARNING: Is about to sound like a random stalker person :END WARNING

You're cool =)
hahaha

heyy np so wats up?

yeah fresh prince is like the only thing on
at like 3am so i watch it!
Haha, yeah i noticed that after i welcomed you,
I was like hey! we share a name!! :D

He really is....

I know...why ginny? she's a stalker! lol

I love h/d stories that have "ginny bashing" in them

KK talk to you laters then

I want tattoos that signal a moment in my life. i want ones that have meaning.
I love watching tattoo stories on this channel called Fuse. People talk about their tattoos and why they got it. Everyone has a story. And i want to know it.