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@ Sammie95
I send my dearest apologies to you and your family for what you've been through and I am so happy that your sister has been able to get better! I am so glad you took enough comfort in me to tell me. I know exactly what you are talking about with how you wish you could have let your sister know just how much you love her, and I feel the same about wishing people could see how much they are loved. It's hard and sometimes seems almost impossible to get that into people's heads, but we always have to keep trying.
Those screaming matches were just your mom letting out her fears in the best way she could because even if you don't have depression, but you have to watch a love one go through it, it is terrible. It brings a huge weight down on your shoulders along with guilt and wishes that you could get your love across to that person. It can cause problems and tear people apart like you said. You have to have a ton of strength to deal with what you have and I respect you for that so much. Nothing your sister has been through was easy and neither was anything you and your family went through, but people do pull through, they do prosper into their bright futures and find love that they thought they've never had. Sometimes people are in deep and need more than words to show them love, but other times all they need is a hug and reminders.
I can't say I've experienced that fear you have with you sister and with the police, but I understand. It's okay to be scared and its completely human. If you ever feel fear still that your sister might slip back into her depression, then talk about it. To your sister, to your family, to a friend, or to me. I'm always here:)

I've had personal experiences with people dealing depression and know what it can do to a person. My sister dealt with depression for a long time (and still is working through it at times). She had attempted suicide multiple times. It ripped my family apart and was really hard to deal with because I couldn't talk to anyone about it. It felt horrible because I couldn't help her. I always told her I loved her and that she is so important to me but she never listened. She used to refuse to go to school and would stay locked in her room all day. None of my friends knew what was going on or why I always seemed so sad or distracted it was because I was constantly worried I would come home from school one day and find my sister dead. I was always so scared. I remember the fights my sister and my parents used to have. They would scream so loud and I wouldn't know what to do. I was only fourteen at the time. I didn't understand what was going on because no one ever explained it to me. I remember one night I was in bed about to go to sleep and someone knocked on the front door and my parents answered it. It was the police. My sister had told one of her friends that she was going to kill herself that night. The police came in and talked to my sister but I just went into my room and cried. My sister came in later and said she was sorry if she scared me and I told her I loved her and that she was one of the most important people in my life but she just nodded. She still didn't seem to understand just how important she was to me. It took another couple years before she finally worked through her roughest patch but now she is doing much better. At times she'll get sad but no where near that bad. I just wish she could see how important she is to me and to my parents. This is the first time I've ever told anyone this outside my family. It feels nice to know that other people have gone through something similar and come out the other side. It is hard for people who haven't experienced it or had someone close to them who has experienced it to understand just how much pain and sadness it causes. Depression is serious and suicide is serious. I just wish everyone could see how much love surrounds them.