He had his phone turned off since the 27th. He turned his phone on yesterday morning, because a notification came to my phone that he has read the message, but he hasn't called me, and I don't think I should call him either. I mean he is clearly avoiding me for some reason - cheating, clubbing with his friends and whatever the hell he does. I feel so pissed at myself for being so much in love with an asshole like that.
No, not yet. And New Years just around the corner and I want him by my side so badly. Yesterday I went out with friends and ended up getting home at eight in the morning. On my way to my house, I stopped by his house and I just starred at his window, hoping he'd wake up and I'd see him. I'm pathetic.