you know what?? i'm reallllyyy fucking sick of all these People that are supposedly "good"" people and then go stab your back. at my school. i was part of the "cool" group. we hurt other people. espically the leader. her name is gia. she hurt my then enemy now she's my good and only friend in that school. and she hurt the love of my life who conveintenly dumped me and hurt another of my best...

i have a friend. and his name is max. and i miss him. he's not gone or anything. the boy that i fell in love with is gone.hes not the same person. i know that people change, but i think him changing was for the worst. i miss the long messages and the cuddling. i miss my maxiiee kat. i want him back. i want the fun loving max back. i still love him no matter what to. i just think we have different...

save me from myself.i don't want to be the way i am now.i want to be happy again.i want to love freely again.but i guess i can't.my heart is eternally scarred by those men.cole,john,avi,and bud.have you ever been hurt beyond repair?i have,and it's fuck awful.don't follow in my footsteps.they are stained with cocaine, unused condoms, cigratte buts, empty vodka bottles, used needles, and the broken...

Ok my peeps.so i have this boyfriend and his name is avi. He claims he loves me. But i'm in love with Max. So all of my friends are telling me to break up with him because he won't use a condom and is a huge perv. the only time we talk is when it's about sex. i just want something more. someone romantic. but i don't want to break up with him because him and jessie are the only ones talking to me....

i was talking to my one friend today and she really loves edward cullen. and won't shut up about him. and she gets all pissed when i tell her to shut up and look for a real guy and not some picture perfect vampire from a fucking BOOK!! i mean. it's one thing to fall for some single rockstar and look up to them. but to fall form a one way minded sparkling vampire. to be that obessed with a...

So yesterday i bought the autobiography of Marilyn Manson. (really good. read!) and some preppy girl sitting next to me saw what i was reading and said in a really obnixous vioce 'OH MAU GAWD!! She's a fucking emo and satanist!!' and my teacher heard and read over my shoulder. and it was the part where he discribes his friends bro's room and so she sent me to the counselor. but i refused to talk....

so last night i had the best dream of my life. it had bill kaulitz in it. so i was over at my grammas house and it was on a lake. and she had a friend coming over and guess what??!! it was simone kaulitz. and she brought her sons. (hint hint) and we were getting along. (me and bill) so then there was a windy storm and bill wanted to go outside. i saw the storm from the window and wanted to take...