i feel so fucking fat.i feel so fucking fat.i feel so fucking fat.i feel so fucking fat.i hate myself.Why is it,when the supposed "happiest time of the year" is the worst for me?i fucking hate Christmas.I feel so fat.I feel so abused.I want to never drink,because im so scared of being turned into her.I fucking hate Christmas.I want to fucking bleed my arms out.I want to be fucking skinny.I want to...