vow of silence / Comments

He? Ok then.
Well, maybe seeing them, will make you feel more positive, maybe actually being with them, being around them, talking to them, it will make you feel less insecure, and more comfortable. Its OK that plans have changed, all that matters, is that its OK in the end, right?

Well I doubt you have any reason to feel insecure, im sure she is feeling the same. All you need to do, is make some time for each other. Call her, plan to spend a day together or something. But dont feel insecure. Just be patient.

Thanks, thats not my best piece. You should some of my others, there are better ones.

And, how close do you live to each other?
Do you live close, but barely see each other? Only talk on the phone or something?
Dont worry about finding a job, that will happen.

Up and down? OOHER!!! Lol XD
Things have been up and down? That normally means things have been good, then bad, then good. You wanna talk?

Eh, thats OK. And if you really wanna know how I feel about myself, so its a better understanding. Read my poem - 'What do you see'
So, anything new happen to you recently?

Well I do hate myself. So how about, we agree to diagree? lol

Yeah, but dude, from what I know of you, you shouldnt hate yourself at all. Theres not one thing I can think of that you shouldnt like about yourself.
Your fun and easy to talk to. Your mysterious *wink* lol And I dunno, just...everything I know about you is good. Theres not one bit of bad. Your caring, cool and a genuinely great guy.

I guess ill just never understand it. I know I wouldnt like someone like me. But then again, I hate everything about me. So yeah.
Maybe, he's just a twat. Thats what I think at the minute. He's just a total twat who thinks he can play with my feelings.

Lol, its not neccessarily weird, just means you care. I get my mates to text me when they get home, if theyve stayed round mine or something. Like one of my friends has to get a train home, so I get him to text me when he's off the train so I know there hasnt been an accident or something. But yeah.

And, im not only baffled as to why he broke up with me and regrets it. Im also confused as to why he likes me in the first place. I wanna know whats going on in his head. But im not even going to try and understand, he will probably just argue with me about it some more

I dont know if im in danger or not, I doubt it though... I think. Look, dont worry about me. Nobody else does. You shouldnt either.

I honestly dont know why he broke up with me. It was literally an over night thing. On the monday he was texting me saying he cant wait to see me, loves me blah blah blah. Then on tuesday, he broke up with me. I was baffled, and still am.

Well...I should...but im good at hiding things, and no-one really cares either way. I could have a life-threatening illness and I could probably hide it until obvious symptoms show. And if people did find out, they wouldnt bat an eyelid... so meh.

And, fuck knows if we are friends. I said I want to be, but he says the problem is he wants more. Which I doubt is true. And if that was the case, why cant he settle for just friends for now? y'know? I mean, thats all I want from him. Is just friendship, thats better than nothing right? I just dont see why he still wants more, he had his chance, he blew it, it was his choice, his fault. He chose to end it, and im nothing special, so he should be over it by now. But he just argues with me about it instead.

You'll miss my late nights? lol
Yeah he's still being a jerk. He totally ignored me on saturday, and then sunday night was talking to me on MSN. I sorta had a go at him, because he was playing me about again, and well he started saying how he gets uncomfortable around me, because he misses being so close to me. He's just pushing me away and turning it on me. All we do is argue, and im sick of it.
and my health...is...non-changing. Its sorta worse, but ive not told my mum, nor do i plan on telling her...

Im OK I guess. Had [i]another[/i] argument with that ex boyfriend. So yeah, thats pissing me off. [b]And[/b] I have to go back to school tomorrow, which sucks, because it means that I have to be off the internet at 10 every night, and I have to be in bed at 11. Im gunna miss my late nights =( lol

Hey any luck with job hunting yet?

haha same here
i will be spending my day doing cleaning my room and getting ready for evil school tomorrow

Yeah, good luck with the job hunting. I'll talk to you soon. Night xoxo

This is true, some friendships can start the strangest ways... lol

Goodnight Mr Mysterious! Hope you sleep well *hugs*

Sort of. I know she goes to my school, she studied Art. one of her pieces in on display in the coridoors at school, and she knows my old best friend. So ive probs seen her around.

Apparently she got my MSN addy off my MySpace, and added me because she's seen me round school and thinks im hot. And she's bi, so "it works for her"
Im not hot! lol, apparently, she's checked me out a few times.

I dont find it funny, its really annoying. But at least its not some crazy stalker.