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Have you been on recently? :/ Or have you given up on this site? I want to read more of your story!! :(

I miss you. D:

Hey. :)

naww thank you for your comment on my poem xox

thx for the poem comment :]

haha glad to hear things r starting to look up for you :) and thanks. All of my poems are just based on what i feel at a particular moment. Like right now I'm on cloud 9

I definately agree

He doesn't like her anymore i dont think. He said he doesn't. I think he wrote it a while ago?? And i know he showed me and i couldn't believe it! It was so sweet. I dont know many if any other guys who write or show that sort of emotion. I have another guy friend who writes songs... I don't know if he ever showed the girl the poem or not?? I'll have to ask...

haha yeah. Well i can tell he put a lot of emotion into it. He said he went to her house and when he got home he just wrote down what he felt. I had no idea he could write like that!

Thanks for your comment on my friends poem. I'm trying to ewncourage him to write more so he will appreciate this and it will certainly help my cause :)

Thank you. [:

I've been better actually,
but it's good to hear you're doing well :)

Hello <3
How are you?
I'm Brianna :)

That's horrible! He took everything and left you with nothing! That bastard!

What happened with my Josh happened 3-4 yrs ago.We both really liked each other, but I can't technically call him my boyfriend. Back then, nobody had started dating yet, but everyone knew it. Josh was a big player/flirt, but girls would always say "He's with Terrie", And guys would felt carefree hanging out with me since they thought I was with him. We really loved each other. The thing I loved most was that I could see every emotion in his eyes. Joy, sadness, anger, confusion, etc, and one emotion I could never place. Love, though I didnt realize it then.
Then one day, I got really scared. Everything was moving so fast, all these weird feelings of physical attraction and we were so young (I'm 15, so we were about 11-12), I was so confused, angry, and scared, it was that night I made my descision to run(metaphorically).- I just couldn't handle it.
The next day I cut him out of my life. I ignored him, didn't talk to him, acted as if life was going on without him in it. I still remember him asking what was wrong, and i didnt't answer. It was the most cruelest thing I've ever done- breaking his heart. I got really sad, I really liked him. Two months later, we moved past each other like the other never existed, like nothing ever happened, and I wanted to take everything back but I didnt know how.
The next school year, we were like mortal enemies, but buried under all the hate (from his side, I just went along with the motions) was him just wondering why and me afraid to talk to him and sort everything out. Then came along her, and he pretended to like her to make me jealous, but at the end he actually started to like her. He'd always verbally push me down, saying I wasn't worth, I didnt do something good enough, stuff like that. It wasn't just him, it was also my insincere friends, how I was invisible, my too busy family, my life in general. After a while it all really got to me, I believe everything he said and I became really depressed. It got really bad and I was suicidal. It was his best friend, also my friend as well, that helped me, showed me I was worth something, and led me to God. School ended and I moved that summer.
I never blame Josh for anything that happened, I understand that that was his way of taking out his frustrations about me. He still loved me all that time we were supposedly hated each other. Put someone in their place if they ever tried to do anything against me, worried about me and kept checking on me whenever I came back from being sick a few days, immediately came if I was angry and upset about a situation and was instantly on my eyes, but more importantly, when he looked at me I'd always see pain, frustration, confusion, and... love.
Even after all this time, I still love him. I can't forget, and my heart doesn't want to let go, but my heart started to care for this other guy and I think I like him, might love him. I know I should move on but my heart doesn't want to let him go. So I'm at a bridge, an unrequited love or a guy I like who I might love.

That's the whole story of my Josh.

Really? That's awesomely cool :D
Sad though, i wouldnt want someone to feel the way I do
-I'm sorry :(
The ache in my heart for Josh is not something I would ever wish on anyone :(
What's your story?- if you feel okay telling me, that is
Thank you so much for the comment! They always make me smile :)

Thanks for reading my poem at like, 1:30 AM PST :) And for the suggestion. I plan on using it if I can find out how xD

thank you for your poem comment

Thanks for the poem comment, darling. :D

thx!! :)

Aye, Thankss so for your comment. :]