OMJ I really love this! You're actually a really good writer! x) At the beginning when it says "It took a while" I think you should change it to "It took me a while",, it just flows better in my head ;P Anyways,, I could be wrong,, whatever you like :)
"Pretend" seemed to be the theme, and it flowed nicely through out. I personally liked it, and it stayed true to the emotions conveyed. Missing someone after the relationship has fallen apart isn't easy. Sometimes it takes a little pretending until you can mean those smiles and laughter again. Nice job!
The stronger the emotions, the stronger the words, the stronger the words, the more beautiful a poem. This couldn't be more true than right here. Love it. <3