you got skills as a writer and for this to be your first poem, I applaud you. My first poem was nothing like this it was basically me ranting for 5 pages about god only knows . I really love how powerful and visual your imagery is; it speaks great volumes and kind of leaps off the page.
I absolutely adore this. You are so gifted! This poem is truly beautiful; to be able to read this and know exactly what you are talking about is an admirable aspect for any writer. My favorite stanza (IT WAS SO HARD TO CHOOSE) is definitely the fourth one with "Your thoughts tell you no but your heart tells you yes so you pack up and leave and change your address" the sporadic rhyming is intriguing and alluring and I love how your lines are limited to but a few words. It gives everything so much more meaning and emphasis. I recommended this and I can't wait for more poems by you! ^_^