January 11th, 2014 at 03:13pm
@ mai942
I am glad that my feelings come across so strongly. I have good days and i have bad days. addiction is a life long no struggle matter if its alcohol , narcotic or even self harm. It is a war and i try the hardest i can to fight back and come out alive. My only hope for writing this is that others who struggle know their not alone. I have been off and on with my sobriety for years now. Its just one day at a time. This is the longest iv been sober for, figured it deserved a poem tribute. How are you?
I am struggling to free myself from self harming. I cut myself when i feel depressed. I feel the need and urge to cut myself until i bleed. Then, i will calm. I only tell this to my closest friend. Thankfully they dont leave me alone and keep helping me. But then, sometimes i can hold myself back.
And i have a bestfriend since i was six. I dont tell him. But obviously he cann sense that i have problem. He keeps asking and convince me that i can tell him everything. I am afraid cause he is the only male friend i have and i value this friendship a lot. I am afraid i will lose him. What should i do?