I had to analyze [right word?] it as part of the project...so...here's the answer...
This poem is about someone who is forced to live in someone else’s ‘world.’ The speaker of the poem seems to be trapped in a controlling relationship, the enforcer being anyone, and is taught that that is the way to live ones life; it is their ‘utopia.’ However, to the speaker, it is exactly the opposite. The speaker feels suffocated and worthless in this ‘ideal lifestyle,’ and has the sudden need to return back into their original life arises~ ‘a sudden ache in my chest to kill again’. However, this also implies that the speakers life before was never a good one, (a life filled with bad habits, ect.). That sudden urge to escape only leads to the speaker running towards their controller instead, not knowing that they could never leave. The speaker believes that if he/she had never known their controllers ideas of the ‘perfect’ lifestyle, then they would have never known their true personality~ ‘If this world had never existed, I would never have known your name’. The speaker also believes that he/she is ‘falling, melting, and dying,’ meaning that they are slowly losing themselves to the chaotic ideals of another’s.
At the end, the speaker is hoping that their controller will one day see what they have done, but realizes that their controller had lost all sense of reality years before and are both losing themselves in the false utopia.