Likely Be

Breathe in
Something special’s coming for all of us.
We have learned
To lose the lives we once held close to us.
I’m still
Sitting here; another night slips away
Because the devil learns to live in all of us.
And I don’t think I’m ready to ride another bus.
I’d like to say I have insomnia
I guess I’ll never know for sure
I’d like to say that I’ve too many friends to count
I’ve got a sickness that won’t be cured.

Silence
Is just another type of thing you learn to love
Angel
I know you’re seeing me undone from up above
So tired
And yet I just can’t be myself for Monday night
Because I’m running out of ink; can’t write tonight.
Guess I could get another pen, but that’s alright.
Wish I could say I’m suicidal
Then everyone could understand
Wish there was more time for me to work it out
But the pilot says it’s nearing time to land.

I’d like to say you were my friend
Just used to being used by now
I read your story, now read mine
I hope you have a grand old time
But now it’s over and
My hands are trembling
Here we go again.
Wish I could say I knew the song
But we both know that’s a lie
Wish I could say I stand with the wind to my back
But the sun is in my eyes; I don’t know why.
And now there’s nothing left to do but sit and cry.

Stick a fork in me; my soul’s burned up tonight.
Likely
Be another day without apologies.
Friendship
Is the only one that never has to sink
But I’m overboard and had to drop anchor.
And after all this time I guess it’s all over.
Wish the headlights could keep me safe
But it’s up to me to make a move
Wish I could channel the inner friend in me
But I’m a simple mess; it’s all I’ll likely be
And I don’t trust you, lest, it’s all we’ll likely be.