senryu of a story

I
tangled in a mess
of happy thoughts and distress
my mind is now lost

II
listen to my heart
it sings only of our part
in this most great good

III
i kiss your nerves, love
and long for skies above
we must live right now

IV
unravel my thoughts
before they begin to rot
keep them safe inside

V
my lonesome heart hast
gotten so weary at last
you never called me

VI
was it really true?
all of my thoughts about you
seemed so wonderful

VII
were we wonderful?
i can't recall those moments
when you held my hand

VIII
but then again i
do remember you with me
under those sad sheets

IX
was it even real?
i recall the way i feel
the way i felt, love

X
the way your laugh shot
sparks into my rusted heart
i remember it

XI
i felt your heart next
to mine while we tried to rest
kiss me softly, love

XII
but we went away
you went to rehab while i
waited for your call

XIII
oh such a stupid
girl i was, thinking
you would call me

XIV
now here we're standing
feeling as alone as we
ever really did

XV
your blue eyes sparkling
my blue eyes feeling alone
even though we stand

XVI
i miss those feelings
i miss that love affair with
your sad, drugged up heart