you gave me hope

when you told me i was lost in side i cryed at night like the tears of fallen..you told me you still love me how am i able to trust that you love me when you broke every thing we had in a millon pices i know deep sown this is my fult and i cant change anything what you have done it was you choice to leave me i know thinki i dnt care but it not true i would do anything for you still..i still have dreams mares of living hell becuz i know know one loves me im like some freak you think i need love well i do i need it to live it kills me every day when you smile becuz i remeber when i use to make it happen but now im just old pice of waste left to die and just be hated by all human kinf my wings are broken and i cant fly back to hell i have to wait for you to finsh me off for good i puit ona smile to fool others into thinking im ok ..well im not i nefer will be for i pormise and i will keep this promise no matter how much it kills me like the tip of blad it cuts me inside to say this i will never for get about you ever you made me happy...well no that all done withl;ets get on with the real fuvking pain the blad is still cuting deep in side of me my wings are still a fallen and im dying i need help my head is fucking with me i think about it ever day like a cold chills it makes me shake in fear of death you act like you hate witch kills me more in sided then the next day you pull all this shiit in me what are you doing what the hell why the fuck i want to die and just fly and repair my bropken wings and fucking go back to wer i came from go back to the days were i could be happynwith out you in my life i still remeber every thing about you and it fuvking cuts me in tears i wish the bleedding could stop for good but the cuts still runs like flowing water falls in my hope and drean=ms your still in them i smile time to time thinking of you..i sound like a worthless soul well if i am witch i know for sure that i am if then i want to be killed by you witch would be the greatest death of all time....like they say love kills .... i scream for you but you still cant hear me why why the hell are you doing this you say you dont want to hurt me well fuck that its to late you al ready stabed me in the heart morwe then once now i wish i never have had that kiss of deaht from you no matter how great the feel felt i feel more pain every day deep down in side becuz of you i fucking lost in the head but your still ok i need to find a life in the person that i am and stand strong but i dnt know how what wrong with me its all over from here on out i lost all the fights in side the bigest battle is still going on trying to keep alvie in the world og pain and hate i feel a great pian its like fire in side of me im buring alive with hate and love all in one knowing that you dont kills me must of all i have dopone gave up so much just for you and what do you do you fucking just thorw it away and you fuck me over and tell me to wile im on the ground with out nothing to say you walk away with a smile and i walk away with a broken heart and sharted dreams it all comes out like a lie and i take lieka truth in my head i still want to think that you care but im afaid of losing whati left in said im just barly hanging on any more it wont be to long befor its all over i cant take a nother blow to my hear no love forq wile i need to heal but maybe it is love what i need to heal some else's love not your but uyou should of took mine when you could of kept it for as long as you wanted to but i gess not you just riped my love in two stomped on it spit in my face now im mad im angery im done with feeling sorry i should have some one who dose love me and not lies to me like you did you not woth my life you never were i will not just thorw away myslef for you im sick of pain and fuicking dying in side and feeling lieka pice of shit and im done waiting i was a long time ago i just dident know it yoiu know word cant explain how much i felt you for you but that all gone now i just hope you know what you did to your slef not me i forgive you i think im not sure yet and all you put mr though everty one else still stay true to me hear unlike you with you lies i hope you dont ruin any ones else life you kille me in side im a changeed person now and i thank you you made me stroner i have put up my walls untell one day some one comes along and dose'nt try to kill me with ther hate y=i know what you will say you never did but to me thats how it felt i have thought of death like a fairy tell maybe its true you say im wrong for thinkin g this but you will never know becuz im far moved on in side dont be so qick to yell at me if it wasent me who would hve it been life will go on but not the same im glad this happen but still deep deep deep in side i still i thinkj i love you witch im not even sure i think i do i think i tell my slef this so i can live my life normal to aponit when i hunt at nught for my meals of blood i still have the sent of you blood in my path i flow it to a end you ther all alone crying in a coner i look at you and i think to my slef that is faar more greater pain then what i had planed for you a broken heat you cant help only time can stich it s pain so i move on to the next one and as i drink the night away in the back of my head a litel movie plays of great memories that has happen in my past life and one just keep playing over and over some times i smile to you but then i cry to you i break down but that all over and done with now that now im all over with life well the life i had with you no our lifes are over we both have our own.. i wont for get the days we spent togerther...i still remeber them like yester day me and you are lost for ever but there still hope one day it could be better fpr the all of us .......for al;l who have a borken heart forgivr the person who didit to you becuz trust me it will make you feel a lot better becuz love never dies