Is This It?

I can't take this anymore,
The pain is too much
I finally let it out
And now I'm bleeding on your perfect fucking life
I was the loser who didn't make mistakes;
I thought it all through
Yet I feel like I'm the one who should be
Shaking hands with a loaded gun
You were the one who threw it all away
So why do I feel like I'm missing something?
Is this what being dead is like?
Because I can't feel my heart beating anymore