Chaos Is My Lullabye

When I was young, with a hopeful heart
My world was ripped and torn apart
By a wifebeater dad
And a mom who didn't get mad
At her perfect husband
Because she knew all to well,
the feel of his hand
On pain she didn't dwell
She thought of leaving
Without grieving
But never did
So I heard it all and
When I was young,
Chaos was my lullabye
I didn't know it was wrong
Just knew it was life

But one day it got bad
It got bloody
Dad was drunk and mad
'Who's was the man's hoody'
He roared in anger
It belonged to her friend, Maddy
But mom couldn't convince Daddy
He was so angry he couldn't see
So mad that he didn't think
Without noticing me
He bashed mom's head against the kitchen sink
When I was young,
Chaos was my lullabye
I didn't know it was wrong
Just knew it was life

Then mom sees where I stand
A little girl of just six years
And cries
Tells me to go call the cops
Daddy screams no, he'll leave and not come back
Blood falls down her face in drops
Tears run down my own
I don't know what to
I love my Daddy
But I want to help mom too
I scream and run
My eyes hurt as I burst out into the sun
Only six, but I'm scared I'll die
If I stay, so I don't even try
When I was young,
Chaos was my lullabye
I didn't know it was wrong
Just knew it was life

I run behind our trailer
Crawl under the rosebush
Curl up in a ball
I hear things crash, I hear things fall
And I fall asleep to the sounds
Of my special lullabye

Now I have grown
They don't know I remember
The pain I've known
Who says the past can't hurt you?
It kills me every day
Knowing I have to think this way
That chaos is my lullaby
Or else I'll go insane