Suicide

I love my friends,
And hate the enemies,
But never met them in reality.
You see the lights,
I see the shadows,
The walls are moving,
And voices heard from nowhere.
We need to break the law
Which makes us feel so law.
I don’t need a year, a life, eternity,
Just one day of happy vanity.
I’ve heard enough of lies,
I’ve been used so many times,
I wanted to see the world
that left me alone.
Everyone goes away when hearing your cries.
Don’t touch my soul when it’s creating art.
I was betrayed so many times,
My heart is like a stone and ice.
I’m burst in tears, my face is down.
When I look up and put up my hand,
I see no help, but their backs,
They hide their face because afraid to see my eyes.
They hide the shame of sorrow I tried to stop.
And now, the punchline’s coming,
Wait… Nobody’s laughing.
The world’s awaiting for your death,
Just like a car crash.
You see, how much you’ve done for those
Who sent you to straight to hell alone
You thought that death was bad,
Now, you know, it’s your closest friend.
Your eyes are red, the lights are off,
A boat of blindness and useless faults.
You never thought your life were good,
It’s sad, mysterious, and false.
But once someone comes in your home,
It all changes now,
No more tears on your pretty face,
You left the side of those who left.
You&I - we are the World.
We’re set on fire,
So we don’t hide our burning desire.
We make the world bend,
Which makes us higher,
We told the truth,
But they call us liers...
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This is my first poem in English. It's not my native language, so I'd like to know your opinion. This poem is about boredom we feel in our life because we don't want other people to betray us again. But then someone comes in your life. Together you are feeling so good, but others don't understand you, they're very jealous. You're so sad about reality...