The fear of you

I watch the tires streetlights fall With the breath of morning.
I haven't slept till early dawn, the thoughts inside me turning

the pain within needs a way out, I need a new beginning.
this hurts too much,I scream, I shout, I want to stop believing.

The voice inside my head is faint-my trust has disappeared,
so many times it said it rained. I know the time has neared.

I fear one thing to come in here-the pain that tears to pieces.
it's him again-he is my fear;his bullet never misses.

and I'm afraid of something else-the fact that I may love him.
his bullets are just present tense;they're words, there's more without them

But when I catch his hurting gaze the pain strikes like a razor.
the love is there, but in a haze. Some say that it's amazing.

But I know better from my fear. I stare, the pain is stunning;
his love has stabbed me like a spear. I hid, cause I stopped running.

And now i sit here, in the dark, afraid to face the handle.
Cause when it turns;he comes, the spark

And there goes my candle....