Dear cutting

Dear cutting,
I've thought of you lately,
Longing for your atmosphere,
Your distraction against what has happened,
The desire strong and clear,
Haunting images of our past affairs,
Within my mind it's drawing fear,
I want to engage in you again,
But the deadly addiction already overcome,
I am scared to see you,
To go back too "then",
Hello cutting,
I ask you to please leave me alone,
I don't fancy your help,
I don't like your convincing tone.