February 27th, 2009 at 01:20am
MOAR PLZ.
Just kidding. :weird
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May I say that this one shot left me with such a hopeless sense of beauty? Beauty, beauty, beauty. I could write down every line and respond to it with one word: beauty. I suppose that's pretty boring after a while, but I keep finding and digging and finding more of these riches that are just filled with a gleaming color I've never seen before. Thank you for putting this up. Thank you for giving me a place to join tonight. I really do appreciate it.
At first, it felt as if Ryan was stuck in the back of this other Ryan's mind. Like he was taken over by somthing- couldn't get back to the person he wanted to be and certainly couldn't keep his control over him. Slowly, I began to understand, and you supported it so well. "Real Ryan." "Drugged Ryan." "Imposter." That was one of the most beatiful, general parts to me.
Eyes wide with fear, Ryan cannot even tear himself away from the screen even when the phone starts screaming for him.
“That’s it! I’m going home and doing it. I’m sick of being alive. This was the last straw. No one cares. No one wants me. Even strangers hate me.”
Everything clicks and the resolution and focus adjust. And Ryan finally understands.
“Do it.”
I know how much I just highlighted but. :cheese:
All my anxiety was led up to there, and then it just burst.
The poetic beauty. By tears. The worry and the wonder.
How odd and twisted everything can be inn retropect.
I love you. :arms:
i did, i did.
whispering calm and soothing nothings into my ear.
i like how whatever brendon is saying is a nothing. it shows just how little ryan cares.
Real Ryan cares. Real Ryan cares about every single, solitary human being.
“I’m sick of being alive.”
If only real Ryan was manning the controls at that very moment. If only, if only.
not sure why, but reading the "I'm sick of being alive." for the first time really twisted a dagger in me. it's so abrupt and dramatic. and little ryan's conscience's narrating is wonderful.
Cue silence; cue the nerve-racking, crucial split seconds of silence before the catastrophic emergency.
Three, two, one… prepare for detonation.
“Whatever. Do it.”
And boom.
ack. i know you already knew this was my favorite part and all, but gosh. the imagery is so flawless. it's all symbolic and shit and totally amazing.<3
By default, it chose the channel 2-news broadcast for the still not fully awake Ryan. not sure why, but i loved "not so fully awake Ryan" just because in it you're so used to hearing about real and impostor ryan, then you throw in another and it just adds to it all so well.
Everything clicks and the resolution and focus adjust. And Ryan finally understands.
“Do it.”
again, excellent imagery. you described the whole realization wonderfully. it gave me a very light-bulb-pops-over-your-head-esque image. a great way to end it.