Such a sad story, I know the feeling!! It always hurts to lose your pets especially when you really loved them. a couple of years ago I lost my dog Tess, she was like 14, but she had been my dog since before i was born, so she was always around and it was just sad!
Wow. That was upsetting. I've been through something similar. I had a dog that died unexpectedly, we think the neighbor did it. She was running around in the backyard of our new house and the neighbors hated us and stuff. Next thing we knew, she was dead in the back yard next to their fence. I still hate them, even if it wasn't them. I can understand where you're coming from. Very good.