OH MY GOOGLE! IT ACTUALLY HAPPENED! Thankyou SO much for updating so soon. Gahh that kiss was so awesome, so realistic. But, ugh, you left us with a cliffhanger. Rae should go back for him. Update soon :)
I only have one thing to say and it's wow! I'm speechless, I've been reading this story for quite a while now and I can never find the right word to describe how good it is. So I'll just leave it to wow while I try and collect my thoughts to give you a comment worth reading.
OMG OMG OMG I KNEW THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN WHEN HE SAID HE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE I WAS LIKE HOLY SHIT HE IS GOING TO KISS HER NDJE XJSKXNDNXM I shouldn't be so excited about it, but I am omg omg omg And her speech was 100% right, the only one who haven't forgiven John is himself. This chapter is in my top 3 of best chapters of this story. I can't analyze anything while I'M FANGIRLING!!!!
I think the meaning behind John crushing the flowers with his CD box is that; flowers wither away but music is forever.
John is terrified of fucking things up with Rae because he cares for her so much and he doesn't want to ruin another relationship with someone that means something to him.
But, I think Rae is ready to be that one person that is willing to see past his faults and drag his ass out of the darkness back into the light. To show him that he's not a disappointment, all he needed was to find someone that would show him how truly amazing he is.
There is one thing that I do request and it's that you PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't take another million years to update. I nearly cried with joy when I saw you updates.......okay maybe not cry, but I was supper excited!
I honestly thought she was going to yell at him, but the whole symbolic flower thing was cute, I can't wait until Marcus is officially out of the picture. And oh John what would be say or do when he finds out that she already knows what happened. Honestly, I want them to just kiss already and start something already haha but I love the build up.
"Maybe because I haven't hurt/disappointed her yet" - that sentence (not word per word) got to me, idk why but it was a very strong statement for me. Leads me to think how he would feel once he does.
And oh, that was quite a long break. I hope you update sooner! :)