April 10th, 2014 at 04:37am
Okay, so at the beginning I was honestly kind of happy that Alex had shut Jenna down but then I wasn't because I knew it just wasn't going to end well, I knew it, I felt it in my bones. Nope. Nuh-uh. Still, I snickered.
"Three choice words leave my mouth - fuck you, bitch - and I slam the door in your face, your shocked expression burned onto my retinas." Even though every line you write, I love, that is truly one of my favorite lines ever in the history of ever. Alex finally let it loose and I know, just know that it won't work in his favor later but right now, it's the best thing.
BYE THEN. DON'T COME BACK. SEE YA, WOULDN'T WANNA BE YA. We all know Alex doesn't share my train of thought but I don't care right now so.
Goodness, even as Alex is trying to sort out of his feelings, he can't because he's imagining her, thinking about her, creating the image of her right in front of his eyes and it's just so bad. He's fallen hard. So hard. He's in too deep. Shiiiit.
SHIIIIT.
"She's gone."
I-I need a moment to breathe. That hurt. She's gone. Bye. Adios. And yes, matching it up with the song, I kind of put up the wall to prepare myself for the inevitable departure and I still wasn't ready. Mother of God, I wasn't ready. Hell no, I wasn't.
JESUS AND THEN THE LAST LINE. ALEX CALLING AND JENNA, BE OKAY. BE OKAY FOR HIS SAKE.
Of course, this was beautiful. Painful, but beautiful. And I loved every second, and I am on pins and needles awaiting Oh. Oh is right. Oh, shit.
Such a contrast to the prequel. In Daydream, they were all playful and best friends, but then in this they seem so...distant. Like, even though he always goes over to her house and she goes to his, their relationship has taken a different turn that has made them so cold. Well, it at least made her so cold. Like when she just straight up told him to leave, ugh my heart. Why Jenna why??
“Why are you still here, anyway? I thought I told you to leave.”
OUCH JENNA. WHY YOU GOTTA BE LIKE THAT. And poor Alex just wishes they were more than just fuck buddies but sadly they're not and he can't stand this. So then he decides to be away from her for a few days and he's trying to think of reasons not to be all hung up on her, but he still is. JUST UGH. COME HERE ALEX, YOU NEED A HUG.
But then she comes over to his house and her hair isn't fully blonde and I don't know about you, but that's like a sign that things are not gonna be good. It's like she's a different person. A VERY COLD PERSON. Oh god, and then Alex says it. He says those cruel words: fuck you, bitch. Shit, I really don't know how to feel about that because at first I was all YEAH ALEX YOU AIN'T TAKING HER SHIT but then I'm like oh no this is bad though because he still loves her and now he feels guilty. I am conflicted and possibly more conflicted than Lexy here.
Oh god and I knew this was coming because of Remembering Sunday but I was still hit with feels. I thought I was ready but nope. Not ready. Never ready for the things that your beautiful writing does to me. SHE'S GONE. SHE LEFT ON A PLANE. And to push the knife even further, he knows that she hates flying and that really says something if she'd rather be on a plane than near him. I'm so worried about where she could be, though.
“Jenna, please be okay.”
PLEASE BE OKAY JENNA PLEASE. BE OKAY FOR POOR ALEX BECAUSE I COULD ONLY IMAGINE THE HORRIBLE PAIN THAT COULD HIT HIM IF YOU DON'T END UP OKAY.
This was beautiful and amazing. I am so scarecited for Oh and the potential hurt that will kick me in the stomach.
Can't wait for more.