June 19th, 2014 at 10:53pm
So, ow.
"Alex sat up and rubbed his eyes, taking a few deep breaths to help himself remain composed. But on the inside, he was far from that and it took every ounce of him not to bury his face in his hands and scream out her name. He couldn’t stay calm, especially after waking up to find that the one thing he feared would happen again had in fact become real." This is unacceptably painful. He's trying so hard to keep his cool and not call out for her, but it's obvious he's coming close to breaking that and screaming her name and it hurts so much because he was just waiting for it and still hoping it would never happen again and just.
Their first meeting however, can I just say meet cute at it's f i n e s t. It's so nice and sweet and biggest fan has fans of his own and aw.
I WANNA BE ONE OF THOSE FANS TALKING TO JACK, RIAN, AND ZACK. GOOD LORD. PLEASE. PLEEEASE.
Oh, Alex, this girl is making you all stuttery and stumbley because it's her. She's the one. How cute is that, though, like really, too much cuteness and it's numbing the hurt I felt previous because this is adorable.
YOUR SINGING IS BEAUTIFUL, HE SAYS. JUST BEING HONEST, HE SAYS. STOP BEING PERFECT, ALEX, I AM SO SERIOUS.
Jack's nosy self is the reason I live. I love nosy Jack. You cannot have anything without nosy Jack. Seriously. It's great. And he decides to tag along with Alex when he goes to watch and it's great.
dON'T Say gOODBye plEASE nO
Kisskisskisskisskisskisskiss. I squealed in my seat, okay, this is the best thing and they're so cute and the kiss and he didn't meet the ground and she really likes him and oh my gosh.
They're young and in like, but they're heart attacks waiting to happen.
THE UNIVERSE IS ON YOUR SIDE. IT IS. WE ARE.
Oh, God. He's young and in love now. The heart attack is coming closer.
"She didn't go after him."
THE HEART ATTACK HAS COME. OW. OH MY GOD. WHY. W H Y Y Y Y. THIS IS TERRIBLE AND HE COULDN'T EVEN SLEEP BECAUSE THOSE WORDS SHE SAID WERE IN HIS HEAD AND KEEPING HIM UP AND DESTROYING HIM AND DESTROYING ME AND NO NO N O.
Dude. Dude.
And as we own this night, I put your body to the test with mine. This love was out of control, three, two, one, where did it gooo? I'LL TELL YOU WHERE IT WENT, VICTOR, SINCE YOU SO KINDLY ASKED. IT WENT OUT THE DOOR. IT WENT OUT THE WHOLE DAMNED BUILDING. IT WENT OUT IN THE WORST TYPE OF WAY. IT DIDN'T GO OUT IN A BLAZE OF GLORY. IT WENT OUT IN A BREEZE FROM HELL.
Okay, I totally understand where Alex is coming from, he doesn't have much control right now because he's hurt and messed up, but if he started talking to me that way, I'd be crying. I'd be hiding in my bunk and crying. I'm too soft for that.
AND THEN HE DIDN'T PERFORM. AFTER ALL THAT. HE DIDN'T PERFORM. AND I CRIED FOR HIM. BECAUSE POOR BABY HE'S SO HURT AND BROKEN APART AND MEG WAS LIKE BYE AND SHE'S GONE AND HE'S SO UPSET AND HE CRIED FOR HER AND NO. MY HEART. IT'S JUST GONE.
no lisa now is not your time it just won't be your time go away please pick up and go out. But the way Alex worded everything, the way he ended it with her, it was sweet and not hurtful and at least she didn't take it horribly. Thank goodness for understanding Lisa.
OH NO NOT THE SONG. ALIYA WHAT ARE YOU DOING. YOU ARE ENTERING DANGEROUS TERRITORY.
HE. COULDN'T. EVEN. SING. IT. WITHOUT. BREAKING. DOWN. OR. RECORD. IT. WITHOUT. CHOKING. OH MY GOODNESS NO.
And then he gave that speech and he decided to sing it in Utah. All hail Utah. You lucky, lucky fans in Utah. His voice was all shaky and tears were falling and he was getting so close to just being like nope fuck it what am I doing here buT HERE SHE IS DECIDING TO BE ALL AROUND AND STUFF.
But his voice came out strong. He did it. He owned it. I'm so proud of my baby, aw, he did it and he did it damn good. this is not just a fic what're you talking about don't touch me i'm feeling.
Jack is my savior. I mean. Seriously.
"Hey, quit looking like somebody took candy from you or whatever."
"I'd like to see you try, but no."
"As hilarious as I am..."
I mean, he's the greatest thing and he saves my heart from shattering because he's great. Even while everything else happened and tore me apart because ow my feels are being thrown around, he's there.
ALSO SHE IS THERE. FREAKING MEG. HOW YA DOING BEEN A NICE LONG YEAR HASN'T IT.
And then we go back to the present and I'm breathing 800000 sighs of relief because I really needed that stability after the roller coaster ride I just took. This fic threw me up and down and out of the coaster and into the coaster and just whoa. AND-A-AND THE RING. DIAMOND RING. OH MY GOD. SCREAMING. THE CUTENESS IT IS STRONG ONCE MORE.
HAPPY MELEX. HAPPY MELEX. H A P P Y M E L E X. AND THAT SONG WAS PERFECT. I GOT A HAPPY MELEX AND I LOVED IT AND HOW PERFECT WAS IT IT WAS SO PERFECT AND CUTE AND SCARY AND PAINFUL AND BEAUTIFUL ALL AT ONCE.
YOU NEVER FAIL. NEVER.
It was so cute and amazing, I'm sorry it took so long to comment.
Remembering Sunday is unbelievably sad, and this story really captured the sadness of it
AND put in a happy ending (: