February 12th, 2018 at 04:47am
KSEVNHGUDRU MY HEART IS FLYING I AM IN SO MUCH DEEP LOVE FOR THIS FIC ALREADY AND WE'RE ONLY ON CHAPTER ONE I'M GONNA JUMP INTO A HOLE AND SCREAM SO I DON'T DISTURB ALL OF NORTH AMERICA IT'S SO GOOD!!! HHHHHH
how did you know that seeing teacher!kuni in his element is my number one ultimate mega powerful weakness? because it is. and i am weak. i feel like he'd be such a good teacher, just a little rough because he doesn't realize how intimidating he can be sometimes and kids like to give him a hard time so he's even more
but if you work well with him, he'll work well with you. kuni's a great guy and would make a great teacher if the students aren't out here getting that so-called "college experience" (seriously y'all are nuts, paying so much money to go and hang and party?? i can't i gotta go it just makes me HN)"...his job is to provide them with the tools necessary to write and solve such equations, to pester and goad them about whether or not they understand, to explain things as logically and forthright as possible." this is basically how i imagine kuni would imagine his job had he remained a teacher, but what really killed me was "pester and goad them about whether or not they understand" because could that be more him. could you make it even more true to character.
kuni being so into whatever he's doing he doesn't realize 1) he's in a horrible position (i feel you dude) and 2) his glasses are just. Gone. what a mood. what a wonderful boy.
i always have to gush about your description whenever i read your work, but it just kinda hits me at certain points, like the paragraph in which he realizes he doesn't have his glasses on and then the part that follows as he puts them back on. i'm just. i'm in love with your writing, it's crazy.
GJVNSEKHGS JESUS CHRIST kuni is so bold he just tosses the phone back in the drawer after reading the first letter of four messages.
that legitimately made me burst out laughing, oh my god. that's so funny. he's in the middle of working and senses just the smallest hint of bs and just. no. he removes himself completely from the chance of getting distracted or bothered so quickly that it's just funny.OKAY??? ARE YOU TRYING TO JUST KILL ME RIGHT HERE?? this is what you want. the whole bit about kuni (that tired boy pls get him a blanket & let him rest ;^;) releasing his hair from the ponytail and massaging his scalp and he starts slowly kinda relaxing into it all and wtf?? wtf?????? i'm deceased. ain't no coming back.
oops i'm back i have to finish this because i am spiritually attached this fic brought me back to life. :')
"Just a bit more." U STUBBORN LITTLE WORKAHOLIC BOY I'M GONNA STRANGLE U WITH A FLUFFY COMFORTER
"Are you alive in here, Kunikida-sensei?" fjdsihfgsueih how many times has he been asked if he's alive when he's in this mode i imagine a lot.
enter little shit dazai oh GOODIE this is gonna go well for exhausted kuni.
the way dazai talks and acts around kunikida is so precious? he's so light and free and silly to contrast kunikida's somewhat stiff and serious nature and they work so good together, godddddd i love them. i hate that you're making dazai so cute, i'm smiling at him THIS IS A SIN.
"You rushed to my aid with takeout in hand?" kunikida, he brought u lunchu. headcanon for this fic bc that's totally my place but? dazai has to do this a lot and every time kunikida has some little remark to make about it but it doesn't stop happening because when kunikida gets into Work Mode dazai takes it upon himself to make sure kuni doesn't die under ungraded assignments. he needs someone to put up with him, you know?
"Eh? It's not like the students would know the difference between our stains and their own." I'M LAUGHING I HATE HIM SGEUIHDUFRIH it's so real that i hate him
their relationship is so cute, it's so good. it didn't even take much work to make kunikida head outside, but he still complains about it and dazai's just like, "yeah, i'm the devil, what do u want? eat this food ok" because it's how they are and it works perfectly and makes me so happy
(also philosophy!teacher!dazai makes me so happy that's such a perfect fit for him omg)
FHJEJSFH HE BIT HIS TONGUE SUFFER ASSHAT
can i just say thank you for the age jump? i don't exactly know why i'm so happy about it but i think it's because it's rare to see and it just makes things a little more interesting because it's so rare and i just love it a lot.
oh boy howdy it's getting tense. i wasn't expecting kuni to get as upset as he did at dazai's question, but that also makes me think that again, this isn't the first time this has happened. if dazai just pries into kuni's love life with a little remark so casually, then i just feel it's happened before because he's so at ease with it. the same with the "do you do things that aren't work related?" moment; kunikida get so heated so quickly that i wonder if it's pent-up agitation because dazai - or other people in his life - have asked him things like this before and maybe he's tired of defending his choices (from dazai, from others, and from his own self, maybe?)
not gonna lie, when i read the bit about dazai pulling his hair back and revealing bruises i immediately thought 'damn who messed u up?' because all i can think when it comes to dazai is that he's in some unpleasant bs situation 99% of the time.
"I don't need sympathy or advice from a playboy like you." nani pls don't hesitate to uhhh expand on that buddy
GNHJDSKGH kunikida's violent thoughts towards dazai make me cry: backhanding him, dumping him into the trash can, it's so funny and you probably can't even tell he's feeling that way because his face is akin to a statue's sometimes. it's such good timing whenever a line like that is slipped in and it's so good, i love it.
"Kunikida shoots him a look hard and cold enough to affix a lesser man to the spot. Dazai merely shoves his hands into the pockets of his khakis and grins back, nose crinkling." nice to know dazai is immune to hellish glares even in AU, no one ever gets to catch a break. what an evil man.
(but dazai cares for kuni v much even if he's a little shit and the fact makes my heart warm i love this fic so much whaaaaaaaat)
(okay but when it's mentioned that kunikida is wearing a green vest i immediately thought of this outfit and i had to take a breather because he looks....so unforgivingly good in this art that i need a moment god bless for putting that image in my head and now that's his official work outfit for this fic in my head MOVING ON)
"...still mildly frustrated but willing to admit the idiot had some sort of marginally caring bone in his body." I KNOW I KNOW GJIESJGIDHG wow kuni you've got such great friends r.i.p. sweetheart
alright now. listen. l i s t e n. i am typing this from beyond the grave. why. why did you have to go and describe the way kuni's tank and shorts cling to him? why you gotta and go and do that to me. i am a fragile woman. i am a weak soul. i'm on the ground....imagining kuni wearing th...ho my God.
and he starts wrapping up and tying his hair in a bun i just know he looks....so good...wtf....MY GOD HE'S COMING TO KICK MY ASS AND I WELCOME HIM
alright horrible fan moment aside let's just recover ourselves and get back to this beautiful fic but GOD MAN
KBGHSOIJ KUNIKIDAAA THIS IS WHAT HE NEEDS THIS IS HOW HE LETS GO AND THIS IS HOW I LOSE MY SOUL AND
"The man his vision is centered on is quite short, Kunikida puts him at a full foot shorter than his own frame of 6'2"." OHBJRIDH HE'S HERE AND THIS IS HOW I ASCEND TO A LAND GREATER THAN OUR OWN GOD YES I AM READY
i know i say this all the time, but i have to give you a thousand million props for your description. it's always so beautiful and puts me right in the moment, right before the characters. i see everything they do as well as get some insight from the background and you make me feel so much so easily? i stan a crazy talent wow
PLS DON'T SMIRK LIKE THAT OKAY KUNI AND I ARE WEAK RN
kuni you think you didn't get caught staring? i know you're smooth sweetie but you ain't that smooth. ol' boy definitely saw you. he's taking notes.
"He loses track of time, forgets even his surroundings as he throws himself into the motions."
i love this fic i love your writing i love this fic i i love your writingUH OH OL' BOY HAS COME I TOLD YOU HE WAS TAKING NOTES
gjdxkihg they're talking they're introducing themselves i wanna roll down a 90ft hill i can't believe kuni is all but starstruck at the sight of this stranger, he's so gone and it's only been two minutes or less you've gotta get a GRIP
" Typically a friend of mine helps me out, but he's also a professional, and he got himself hurt in his last match." hmmmmmmmmmm
HE WINKED WTF YOU DIDN'T IMAGINE ANYTHING OKAY CHUUYA IS SKILLED U KNOW HE WINKED AND U KNOW HE MEANT IT
ahhh my goodness kunikida constantly keeping to himself because he thinks that he'll just inevitably let people down??? my heart didn't ask and now it's aching oh my goodness. yes please accept chuuya into your life let him light it up and breathe something fresh and freeing into it. LET HIM BE YOUR MANIC PIXIE DREAM OR EVEN JUST A CUDDLE BUDDY I MEAN SPARRING PARTNER
"Something about the lack of effort the man before him seemed to put into all of his movements and all of his words was a comforting contrast to Kunikida's own." just ignoring canon for a minute, they fit so well together in this fic alone that i'm screaming. this is gonna be the most beautiful and pure. kunikida already recognizes the differences between them and yet there's something inside that is urging him to keep up with this man despite the contrast, something that wants him to stick around, and i'm just. i'm so here for it. i love it. i'm so alive.
this comment is probably all over the place and i'm so sorry but like. this chapter has made me so incredibly happy like i'm gonna read this for the rest of my life and when the next update comes? best believe i'm gonna scream into my hands and my pillow and the carseat and the void. i think i've said i love this waaay too much but honestly, i do. and those words hold the same weight to me throughout this entire comment. I LOVE THIS GATSU (yes i meant gatsu hehe) I REALLY DO
(also 10000 points to unconscious!flirt!chuuya because you know...you just know it's true. & heavy agree why would you not flirt with or at least appreciate such a good man i don't understand?? & side but my math professor and one of my other ones both still grade with pen and paper so kuni + this fic is valid i swear
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HELLO AND WELCOME TO THE MADNESS. Also the second and third chapters of this are currently sitting in my drafts because I'm a lil shit who can't decide which should go first.
Also, obviously all head canons and suggestions from you are loved and taken into account because why would I not?
OKAY SO MOST COLLEGE AUS I'VE READ DON'T BANK ON THIS PRECIOUS IDEAL AND I'M LIKE HE'S RIGHT THERE? Also yessss, like he's just too perfect as a teacher? I think even I'd I had no knowledge of him being one that still would have been his profession because it just fits.
I WAS REALLY FEELING THAT DESCRIPTION, LEMME TELL YOU H'WHAT. As soon as I decided I needed to write sum Kunikida into my life, I was like "MAN I GOTTA DESCRIBE THAT PONYTAIL FEEL THO".
Honestly I love the idea of them taking care of each other in any kind of relationship? And I think that Dazai, not really ever learning HOW to properly take care of people, annoys him to get him to stop doing things because it works the best and he is just trying to get that poor workaholic to take a break for himself. And I think too that Kunikida feels this and is appreciative because he sees Dazai's intentions but that doesn't make it any less infuriating because he was in that ultra focused zone where everything just goes forever and who needs to eat anyways?
Side note: I sometimes read the interaction between him and Dazai and am like "oh god I did the thing" but then I'm like "NO, YOU DIDN'T, YOU KNOW THE TRUTH" and I have this little back and forth with myself.
I feel like aging them up is something that should be explored way more? And I feel like it particularly works for characters like Kuni and Chuu with how I find myself writing them viewing life. Also I'm only 4 years from 30 like, hello we're valid and not grandpas and grandmas yet, guys.
YOU'VE BLESSED ME WITH MY FAVE YES THAT IS THE EXACT OUTFIT I PICTURED WHEN WRITING THAT!!! BLESS.
Hehehehe I really enjoyed writing and envisioning his outfit for working out, like? If I could draw I would draw such a thing and spam everyone with millions s of different workout images of him.
Also had a helluva time describing those shorts properly so that it didn't just sound like he was in boots shorts, cuz, you know, you say spandex, that's where everyone's mind goes.
Side note: THEM BOYS HAS MUSCLES, EVERYONE CAN COME AT ME, THEY'RE SLIM BUT THEY'RE BUILT AF.
One day I'll actually properly describe him moving. Aftgki;jofjk AKA they gon' spar.
Man, I rewrote that so many times because I kept. Hopping. Perspectives. Because. I'm. Trash. Also because spoiler alert he's not the only awestruck one, and I kept rushing to convey that and stopping like "ALL IN DUE TIME GIRL, YOU HAVE MORE CHAPTERS IN YOU".
LET HIM BE YOUR MANIC PIXIE DREAM OR EVEN JUST A CUDDLE BUDDY I MEAN SPARRING PARTNER I about died I'm dead.
This comment was perfection and the fact that you enjoy this story gives me life, so.
It's because he's literally gravity. I don't make these rules.
RIGHT? Just look at him.
Side note I'm glad I'm not that far behind.