This Loveless Lullaby

I smiled proudly from my chair in the audience, the trio bowed and ran off stage; I clapped loudly and waited for them to return to their seats.

“Hey babe,” I felt a soft pair of lips grace my cheek, “Hey! You did great!” I gushed kissing his cheek as well, he smiled at me and took my hand into his and began to engage in a conversation with the other guests at our table,

Ignoring my very presence.

I sipped my water I pretended to be interested with the fine details of the tiny and dimly light room.

I was his very world, once. I was the spark that shined in his eye, once. And I was the very girl that captured his heart never letting go, once.

Once I was all three of those things, I was loved, cared for, acknowledge. Now I was nothing more then his arm candy, I was his trusted advisor, I was nothing more to him then a presence in his house.

I grew up with the very man I now call my husband. He was shy, quiet, smart, and loving. I was the only one he had ever truly trusted. The one person he had shared his deepest of secrets and thoughts with,

I was and am still his safety. Early on sure he married me for love, and early on sure I was his world, even more so then music.

Now I am nothing more then his assistant, always fully there for him giving him my all everyday, as he prances around on stage making millions of dreams come true,

Maybe I’m being selfish, but all I want is to love my husband.

And for him to fully love me back.

My name’s Allison Karenna Jonas and the only thing I want in life, more then anything is my fairytale ending with,

Paul Kevin Jonas Jr.