Love's Requiem

And there it was burning a hole in to each iris in my eyes, two pink lines.

“Bella?” Jack asked as I heard him move behind me. “What’s going on?”

In the spirit of my horrible luck, and apparently horrible karma whatever was on TV had began playing Madonna’s song “Papa don’t preach”.

“That” I told him pointing to the TV, “That’s exactly what’s going on.” I sighed as I turned and showed him the test in my hand.

“Bella” He began but I just ran in his arms and began to cry.

“I’m pregnant.” I cried in to him more.

“Shhh, it’s okay I’m sure Niko will still love you when your fat and you can either push up or push back the wedding.” He told me as he rubbed my back.

“It’s Alex’s.” I whispered, as I felt him stiffen and stop rubbing my back.

“What are you talking about?” He asked me as he lifted my head. “You and Alex didn’t“

“That night him and I disappeared.” I told him, “We had sex that night, and we both were drunk so I told him we had to act like it never happened.”

“So Niko doesn’t know, does he?”

“No.” I said shaking my head as I began crying all over again.

“Okay,” He said letting out a sigh, “Let’s dispose of all the evidence and then figure out what you’re going to do.” He went on as he pulled out a garbage bag.

“I can’t tell Alex.” I said shaking my head as I ate another Twinkie.

Jack and I were currently in the back lounge trying to figure out some sort of plan for me and the growing baby inside me.

“You have to tell Alex, he has every fucking right know!”

“But, what if I like fly to England for a few days have sex with Niko and then play it off that it’s his!”

“And what happens when that kid comes out looking like Alex, and a month early? Face the facts, he has to know.” He told me as he looked down at his phone. “It’s 2:30, they’ll be back soon.” He added.

“Fine, I’ll tell him.” I mumbled as I heard noise in the front lounge.

“Dude what the fuck! You said you needed your wallet and never came back.” Alex said
swinging the door open.

“I decided to keep Bella company cause she really wasn’t looking too good when I got back.” Jack lied as he got up, “Where’s everyone else?” He added.

“At the 7-11 down the street getting some stuff for the drive.” Alex told him, not taking his
eyes off of me.

“I’ll be back then,” Jack said leaving.

After I heard the door close in front, Alex turned to go back to the front.

“Alex wait,” I began getting up to go after him. “I need to talk to you.”

“What’s up?” He asked me casually, as he stopped and him and I were standing in the middle of the bunk area.

I looked up at him; I almost forgot how tall he was seeing as the last time him and I stood this close we probably were in better times.

“It’s about what happened.” I said quietly.

“Let me guess you told him?” He said in annoyed tone, “And now he thinks I’m an asshole and he’s going to kick my ass or something?”

“No,” I said shaking my head, as I felt tears building up again. “I’m pregnant.” I told him, as I saw his eyes widen.

At first he pulled me in to a hug, a tight hug and reassured me that we would work through it and make everything okay.

“What are we going to do?” He said in my ear as I heard everyone walk on the bus.

“Don’t say anything to anyone.” I told him as we quickly moved back to the lounge and I cleaned my face again in my hoodie sleeve.

Once everyone went to sleep that night, Alex and I went to the back lounge to figure something out.

“Are you sure?” Alex asked me.

“I took a home test, so not fully.”

“Are you positive it’s mine?”

“The last time I had sex with Niko was in Russia so yeah.” I told him.

“When’s our next day off?”

“Two days in Toronto.” I told him.

“Find a clinic, we’ll find out for sure and take it from there.” He told me.

The next two days, Alex never seemed to leave my side. When the guys would go out after a show, he stayed behind with me and we watched movies, or play chess together. I still had to act like everything was fine when I would talk to Niko and at the moment the only people who knew I was maybe pregnant was Jack and Alex.

The morning of the doctor’s appointment I felt more terrified than I did the night I took the test. Alex had woken me up after he had showered so I followed to shower and get ready myself.
I tried to dress somewhat nice, just out of habit of my mom always dressing us up for doctor’s appointments when Niko and me were younger. I wore a purple plaid top, jeans, and a pair of purple flats. Alex and I left, hoping not to run in to anyone as we left the lobby and got in to a cab giving the address.

“Nervous?” Alex asked me as we got on to the freeway.

“Terrified would be more fitting.” I mumbled looking out the window.

20 minutes later we were left off in front of the women’s clinic. We walked in and I checked in, we weren’t waiting long pretty soon they called my name and Alex and I went in.

“Miss Sladovic, what seems to be the problem?” The gynecologist asked me after introductions.

“Well I took a home pregnancy test, and it came back positive.” I explained.

“Alright, so I take it you’re here to see if it’s the real deal or not?” She smiled.

“Pretty much.” I nodded.

“Alright well we’ll run some tests and then check to see if you are.” She explained as she led me to where I was going to have some blood taken.

After I gave blood and urine samples I was asked to change in to a hospital gown. I sat back on the seat, and grabbed Alex’s hand subconsciously.

“Everything is going to be okay.” Alex told me softly as he kissed my temple.

Somehow, that helped me relax, and when the doctor came back a few minutes later I only rested my head on Alex as we waited for the results.

“Well Miss. Sladovic you certainly are pregnant.” She smiled, man if she only knew the situation this put me in she probably wouldn’t be smiling like that. “Let’s find out how far along you are.” She added as she started up some machine.

I squeezed Alex’s hand I felt pressure where I really never would want to feel it, and we both looked up at the screen of the ultra sound when she told us to.

“Well I’d say you’re about 3 weeks pregnant, congratulations.” She told us as she shut off the machine, and let me change and clean up