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You're Right That It's Wrong To Spend the Night Alone
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"B-Bren? Can we talk?"
He looked up from his laptop. "Um, yah, what's up?" He pushed his glasses up and I smiled a little.
I sat down on his bunk beside him. Well, I perched.
"Ry, don't be so nervous. Lay down. What's wrong?"
I laid down, like he said to, and turned to face him.
His smile caught me completely off-guard.
"Um..."
"Ry, come on. You can tell me anything."
"This... thing... we do."
He nodded, looking kind of confused.
"The sex... Brendon... I... I love you. And, um... supposedly it's healthy for me to tell you that instead of making you think I'm okay with just the sex and kisses and shit. I just... I either want to have all of you, for you to be my boyfriend, or, um, none of you."
Brendon just stared at me.
"Um, that's all." I looked down, silent.
Then I heard it.
He giggled.
My head jerked up.
"What's today? Oh, my God, it must be April first."
My face fell. "Brendon," I choked out.
His smile dropped as well. "Ryan...Oh, my God, you're serious."
I looked down again, trying not to cry. "Thank you so fucking much for taking me seriously."
"No, it's just...Ryan, since when have you had feelings?"
I swallowed back my tears, looking down.
"Okay, Ryan, look..." He rubbed at his eyes. "I love you, man. You're like a brother to me... Except way hotter, and it's legal to do this shit... Okay, bad analogy. Ry, you're my best friend. But I can't see us together. I mean... I'm Brendon Urie. I could have anybody... Why would I want, or need, someone that I already have?"
I looked up at him, shocked and pained surprisingly deep.
"Are you okay?"
"No."
Fuck the lying to make him feel better.
He looked up from his laptop. "Um, yah, what's up?" He pushed his glasses up and I smiled a little.
I sat down on his bunk beside him. Well, I perched.
"Ry, don't be so nervous. Lay down. What's wrong?"
I laid down, like he said to, and turned to face him.
His smile caught me completely off-guard.
"Um..."
"Ry, come on. You can tell me anything."
"This... thing... we do."
He nodded, looking kind of confused.
"The sex... Brendon... I... I love you. And, um... supposedly it's healthy for me to tell you that instead of making you think I'm okay with just the sex and kisses and shit. I just... I either want to have all of you, for you to be my boyfriend, or, um, none of you."
Brendon just stared at me.
"Um, that's all." I looked down, silent.
Then I heard it.
He giggled.
My head jerked up.
"What's today? Oh, my God, it must be April first."
My face fell. "Brendon," I choked out.
His smile dropped as well. "Ryan...Oh, my God, you're serious."
I looked down again, trying not to cry. "Thank you so fucking much for taking me seriously."
"No, it's just...Ryan, since when have you had feelings?"
I swallowed back my tears, looking down.
"Okay, Ryan, look..." He rubbed at his eyes. "I love you, man. You're like a brother to me... Except way hotter, and it's legal to do this shit... Okay, bad analogy. Ry, you're my best friend. But I can't see us together. I mean... I'm Brendon Urie. I could have anybody... Why would I want, or need, someone that I already have?"
I looked up at him, shocked and pained surprisingly deep.
"Are you okay?"
"No."
Fuck the lying to make him feel better.
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*coughs nervously* Kindly don't hate me for this chapter.<3 Manda