When You Cry Cause It Hurts Doesn't Mean Your Not Heard, Cause Aloud In Heaven The Angels Cry With You

The band's name was heaven's dark side. They were all at practice they started playing a song Esther made up...we didn't have a title yet...

When I see you smile at me I melt inside
The beat of your heart is the rhythm of my life
Your voice is like music to my ears
you always can conquer all my fears
That was then, this is now
I no longer melt when you smile

I smile and say hello like nothings wrong,
While inside I’m burning with hate so strong
I loathe and despise you, I thought that I loved you
it doesn't show how much I hate you

The beat of your heart is like a death song
Your voice is as dead as a cemetery grave
Your heart is as fake as all of your lies
I hate you
I want to, to break you
so you feel the pain that I feel
But yet I still love you

I smile and say hello like nothings wrong,
While inside I’m burning with hate so strong
I loathe and despise you, I thought that I loved you
it doesn't show how much I hate you

One day you will feel my pain
One day you will feel my wrath
One day you will regret what you did to me
yeah
And you will be amazed
At how much anger there is in me
You will die from my burning love.
Your gone, you’ve faded away like I have
ooh

I smile and say hello like nothings wrong,
While inside I’m burning with hate so strong
I loathe and despise you, I thought that I loved you
it doesn't show how much I hate you

Now you have felt my pain,
now you’re just gone away
I should be happy but when you left
you took my heart with you…
You died, you're gone
and still you have destroyed me…

I smile and say hello like nothings wrong,
While inside I’m burning with hate so strong
I loathe and despise you, I thought that I loved you
it doesn't show how much I hate you...

[I own these lyrics...]

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they practiced a bit more after that and then they took a break...I sat on a chair watching Hayley try something with her guitar...Natalie was doing something on the piano to Hayley's guitar...Jake was just fooling around and john was singing....it was just so...moving...he had a beautiful voice...when he stopped he saw that I was crying...he knelt down beside me and whispered

"baby, what’s wrong?"

"nothing that was just so beautiful..." I started to cry harder as I remembered my father...he pulled me into a hug and asked if he had hurt me...I shook my head and said

"no but I hurt myself.” I shakily pulled up my sleeve to real my cuts. He shook his head and hugged her again. He whispered

"I’m so sorry, but you shouldn't do this to yourself."

"I know but I have to...I just do." they just hugged for a while...