A Kiss And I Will Surrender

Lily’s POV

Recently I’ve been going on evening walks to escape my angry household. Everyone fought; the house was either silent or filled with yelling, to much for me to handle. One thing about my walks is…I never went to the park anymore…to many painful memories. On my walks I didn’t think, I kept my mind blank so I never knew where I was going or how I got there…not good when you recently moved from another country. I looked up from my feet to see that I had made my way to a cemetery. PERFECT! No one would be at a cemetery when the sun’s about to go down. I opened the gates, they creaked really loudly…typical cemetery. I don’t know why, but I love cemeteries, the eerie silence, the history and how they always seem so…haunted. I walked through the graves, looking at the exotic headstones when one caught my eye. It was a normal headstone, but there was broken glass and pill containers surrounding it. When I looked closer I noticed that blood was splattered on the head stone and there was a bunch of red roses tied with a black ribbon at its base. The writing on the headstone said:

R.I.P
Elena Way
A loving Wife, Mother
And Grandmother

Could Elena possibly be some relation to Mikey and…Gerard? Had Gerard or Mikey ever mentioned an Elena? While I was deep in thought I heard sobbing. I turned towards where the sobbing was coming from and spotted a dark figure slouched by the mausoleum door. I stepped closer to the sobbing man…when I got closer the sobbing stopped and it was replaced with singing.
“I won’t stop dying, won’t stop lying
If you want I’ll keep on crying
Did you get what you deserve?
Is this what you always want me for?
I miss you; I miss you, so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
Way down, way do-”
He cut off when he noticed that I was there. He looked at me and I looked straight into the eyes of a drunk and stoned Gerard Way. He looked at me then looked down at his wrist, I followed his gaze. I gasped, blood oozed from a cut. He looked back at me, then his eyes rolled back and he fell unconscious. I stood shocked for a moment; I took my eyes away from the unconscious Gerard to notice that there were pills and beer bottles scattered everywhere…but the thing that most caught my eye was a razor that was covered in fresh blood. After I could move again I grabbed my mobile and dialled the first number that came into my head…which happened to be Mikey’s.

The phone rang, Mikey picked up on the third ring.
“Hello?” a shy Mikey said
“Hey Mikey, it’s Lily,” I replied, unsure of what his reaction would be.
“What do you want whore?” I could hear the disgust in his voice.
“Listen, I found Gerard”
“Leave him alone, he’s already messed up,” anger rising in Mikey’s tone.
“He’s unconscious,” I said quickly
There was silence on the end before Mikey said “I’m on my way…call 911”

He hung up and I called 911 and the ambulance was on its way. Mikey turned up only moments later and he was out of breath.
“How did you know where we were?” I asked him
“He’s been here for a while,” Mikey said looking at the ground
“Why?”…I just had to know
“He cracked and tried to commit suicide, he was classified insane…they were about to send him to an insane asylum, so he ran here…to our grandma’s grave,” Mikey’s voice quavered a bit
“That must be the one covered in pills, glass and blood,”
“What?” Mikey’s eyes went wide
“Elena Way?”
“Yeh,”
“Well, he’s kind of trashed the grave,” I said
“Do you know why he’s unconscious?” Mikey asked
“He’s overdosed on pills, drunk and he’s been cutting” I explained
“He broke his promise…AGAIN!” he yelled
The ambulance turned up and Gerard was taken away on a gurney.

Mikey just stood there, silently crying…I needed to talk to him.
“Mikey?” I asked softly
“Yes?” he replied wiping away tears.
“I’m sorry for deserting you guys…it was my parents; they were threatening to send me to a boarding school in Australia…”
“Sorry about Meghan…she got angry when I started crying …the rest of the guys will forgive you if I told them about why you abandoned us…but Gerard will be the hardest of all…that’s if he survives” Tears streamed down Mikey’s face.
“He’ll survive…and thanks, but I did deserve what Meghan did…” I told him.
“Well…I’d better go tell mum…I’ll try and talk to the guys…talk to you soon” Mikey said
“Bye,” I said quietly

Mikey walked off. I realised at that moment that Gerard was like this because of me…and…that I needed him more than ever.