But It's Better If You Do
i love you
Pt. 9
Gerard Way
at 1st I thought maybe im still foggy but no I could see him plain as freaking day. But I kept as calm as possible.
*gasps*
“why r u here?”
“harsh”
“no I mean you weren’t here b4 why now? Is this a dream?”
“yes”
“really?”
“no”
“well which one is it?”
“no panic gave me a call and said you might want some cheering up and I was the only person who could do it? So that’s why”
man, why is every one around here so freaking sweet
“well im glad ur here but lyk I said I need to vent and frankly I don’t think your gunna want to be in here wen I do. But is the rest of my chemical romance here?”
“yup”
“Yay”
“well I guess ill go now”
“ok”
“hay which song?”
“I’m not okay(I promise)”
“nice”
“thanks”
he walked outta the bus and I cranked it so loud you could here it in the venue. I screamed the song as loud as I could and still couldn’t here myself. It was awesome!
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you'd read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay
(Trust me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-freaking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
I got finished and walked outta the bus to find ryan. Rite there.
“angry much?”
“no, not really just confused”
“oh, did you get my note”
I looked at my feet
“yea”
he sighed and bit his bottom lip. :)
“ya kno after I’ve thought about it I think I believe you”
I kissed his quivering lip and ran for the venue. I don’t kno y I did it I just did but ryan ran after me.
“stay here” I told ryan stopping right outside the door of the room that chasity and sara were in.
“can I walk over there to brendon” he said giving me a puppy dog look again.
“aw sure” I walked in to see chasity and sara drooling over Gerard.
“hay Gerard!”
“hello”
“snap out of it” I said snapping my fingers in front of their faces
“huh?”
“wut?”
“y’all r retared”
“yea pretty much”
“I’m off to talk to ryan so you girls can talk” I must have given him a look or sumthin’
“ok see ya laterz” he waved and walked out
“omg ryan doesn’t have a girlfriend its an ex and omg she still wants 2b w/ him but he doesn’t lyk her n/e more and he asked me out and I think I said yes” I said followed by deep breaths cuz I said it all really fast
“woah there explain in more detail and slower” (chasity)
I explained EVERYTHING as she asked
“oh my goodness gracious lord in heaven on earth help us all” (chasity)
“and I thought I was a drama queen”
“u both r”
“thx” (chas)
“my pleasure”
“so your goin’ out w/ ryan what is nick gunna say?”
“oh my word I don’t even...care, we broke up and he needs to move on!”
“harshness”
“shut-up ya kno its true”
“its only been a day how would you feel if nick showed up w/ a girlfriend? Ow!” chasity elbowed sara.
“do y’all kno sumthin’ I don’t”
“maybe”
no way does nick have a girlfriend already
“I’ll be back” I ran out the door and was running all the way to the all-american rejects’s bus which was on the opposite side of the venue but I tripped
“oh my goodness r u ok?” some girl asked me
“yea I am fine”
“that’s good where were u running?”
“to go see nick and Tyson”
“oh do you date ty or sumthin’”
“no y would you say that”
“cuz you were running off to see them and you couldn’t be dating nick I am”
“sry did I hear you rite? r u dating nick wheeler?”
“yup he’s so sweet”
“how long have you known him lyk wen did he 1st talk to you?”
“well I was wandering around and he jumped outta nowhere I thought he was cute we talked, and he asked me out and I said yes”
“woah”
“yea 1st time I’d met him ever”
“that’s kool do you kno where he’s at?”
“at the bus”
“thx nice meeting you bye” I sprinted off towards the bus more carefully now and more angry as ever
she’s sweet but he’s just met and and is playing w/ her feelings. How evil
I reached the bus and barged in
“NICKOLAS DONALD WHEELER!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“omg wut is your freaking problem”
“I just met the girl who’s getting her feelings played w/ by you!!!!!!!”
“what?”
“you just met the girl and asked her out 30 minutes later r u some kinda butt hole to just play w/ girls’ feelings. She’s out therethinking you love her and you don’t even give a care about her. Ya kno I take back the question I KNO ur a butt hole”
I stormed off and ran n2 gerard AGAIN isn’t it great!
“Gerard oh um hi”
“hay wuts wrong”
“oh nothing im just tired of the girls on this tour getting played w/ ya kno?”
“I guess?”
“I just met nick’s new ‘girlfriend’”
“I thought he broke up w/ you just yesterday”
“exactly”
“oh”
“I'm so frustrated I need to be whisked away from all my fears”
“that’s song material if I’ve ever herd it"
“yea I guess ya kno wut I used to be totally obsessed w/ nick and ryan and you kno what id scream wen I was this frustrated?”
“what”
“I used to scream RYAN ROSS TAKE ME AWAY!”
“will do” ryan came outta nowhere and picked my up and put me over his shoulder and I started a drum beat on his back.
“ya kno ur guna drop me and were both gunna tumble to the hard ground”
“yea but were gonna laugh wen it happens”
“yea probably but oh well”
we reached the bus and it was empty
“n/e body here?”
silence
“guess not”
“nope I guess not”
he went and turned the t.v. on sponge bob
“yay sponge bob squarepants oh my goodness its wen spongebob meets sandy. I love this one!”
“of course”
“duh you!”
you watched it contendedly w/o speaking and again broke the silence
“ya wanna kno the truth ry?”
“I always wanna hear the truth from you”
“I love you”
“nu-huh”
“you may not believe you mean this much to me but you do”
”I love you 2”
I smiled and fell asleep w/ my head in his lap.
Gerard Way
at 1st I thought maybe im still foggy but no I could see him plain as freaking day. But I kept as calm as possible.
*gasps*
“why r u here?”
“harsh”
“no I mean you weren’t here b4 why now? Is this a dream?”
“yes”
“really?”
“no”
“well which one is it?”
“no panic gave me a call and said you might want some cheering up and I was the only person who could do it? So that’s why”
man, why is every one around here so freaking sweet
“well im glad ur here but lyk I said I need to vent and frankly I don’t think your gunna want to be in here wen I do. But is the rest of my chemical romance here?”
“yup”
“Yay”
“well I guess ill go now”
“ok”
“hay which song?”
“I’m not okay(I promise)”
“nice”
“thanks”
he walked outta the bus and I cranked it so loud you could here it in the venue. I screamed the song as loud as I could and still couldn’t here myself. It was awesome!
Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you'd read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay
(Trust me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-freaking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)
I got finished and walked outta the bus to find ryan. Rite there.
“angry much?”
“no, not really just confused”
“oh, did you get my note”
I looked at my feet
“yea”
he sighed and bit his bottom lip. :)
“ya kno after I’ve thought about it I think I believe you”
I kissed his quivering lip and ran for the venue. I don’t kno y I did it I just did but ryan ran after me.
“stay here” I told ryan stopping right outside the door of the room that chasity and sara were in.
“can I walk over there to brendon” he said giving me a puppy dog look again.
“aw sure” I walked in to see chasity and sara drooling over Gerard.
“hay Gerard!”
“hello”
“snap out of it” I said snapping my fingers in front of their faces
“huh?”
“wut?”
“y’all r retared”
“yea pretty much”
“I’m off to talk to ryan so you girls can talk” I must have given him a look or sumthin’
“ok see ya laterz” he waved and walked out
“omg ryan doesn’t have a girlfriend its an ex and omg she still wants 2b w/ him but he doesn’t lyk her n/e more and he asked me out and I think I said yes” I said followed by deep breaths cuz I said it all really fast
“woah there explain in more detail and slower” (chasity)
I explained EVERYTHING as she asked
“oh my goodness gracious lord in heaven on earth help us all” (chasity)
“and I thought I was a drama queen”
“u both r”
“thx” (chas)
“my pleasure”
“so your goin’ out w/ ryan what is nick gunna say?”
“oh my word I don’t even...care, we broke up and he needs to move on!”
“harshness”
“shut-up ya kno its true”
“its only been a day how would you feel if nick showed up w/ a girlfriend? Ow!” chasity elbowed sara.
“do y’all kno sumthin’ I don’t”
“maybe”
no way does nick have a girlfriend already
“I’ll be back” I ran out the door and was running all the way to the all-american rejects’s bus which was on the opposite side of the venue but I tripped
“oh my goodness r u ok?” some girl asked me
“yea I am fine”
“that’s good where were u running?”
“to go see nick and Tyson”
“oh do you date ty or sumthin’”
“no y would you say that”
“cuz you were running off to see them and you couldn’t be dating nick I am”
“sry did I hear you rite? r u dating nick wheeler?”
“yup he’s so sweet”
“how long have you known him lyk wen did he 1st talk to you?”
“well I was wandering around and he jumped outta nowhere I thought he was cute we talked, and he asked me out and I said yes”
“woah”
“yea 1st time I’d met him ever”
“that’s kool do you kno where he’s at?”
“at the bus”
“thx nice meeting you bye” I sprinted off towards the bus more carefully now and more angry as ever
she’s sweet but he’s just met and and is playing w/ her feelings. How evil
I reached the bus and barged in
“NICKOLAS DONALD WHEELER!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“omg wut is your freaking problem”
“I just met the girl who’s getting her feelings played w/ by you!!!!!!!”
“what?”
“you just met the girl and asked her out 30 minutes later r u some kinda butt hole to just play w/ girls’ feelings. She’s out therethinking you love her and you don’t even give a care about her. Ya kno I take back the question I KNO ur a butt hole”
I stormed off and ran n2 gerard AGAIN isn’t it great!
“Gerard oh um hi”
“hay wuts wrong”
“oh nothing im just tired of the girls on this tour getting played w/ ya kno?”
“I guess?”
“I just met nick’s new ‘girlfriend’”
“I thought he broke up w/ you just yesterday”
“exactly”
“oh”
“I'm so frustrated I need to be whisked away from all my fears”
“that’s song material if I’ve ever herd it"
“yea I guess ya kno wut I used to be totally obsessed w/ nick and ryan and you kno what id scream wen I was this frustrated?”
“what”
“I used to scream RYAN ROSS TAKE ME AWAY!”
“will do” ryan came outta nowhere and picked my up and put me over his shoulder and I started a drum beat on his back.
“ya kno ur guna drop me and were both gunna tumble to the hard ground”
“yea but were gonna laugh wen it happens”
“yea probably but oh well”
we reached the bus and it was empty
“n/e body here?”
silence
“guess not”
“nope I guess not”
he went and turned the t.v. on sponge bob
“yay sponge bob squarepants oh my goodness its wen spongebob meets sandy. I love this one!”
“of course”
“duh you!”
you watched it contendedly w/o speaking and again broke the silence
“ya wanna kno the truth ry?”
“I always wanna hear the truth from you”
“I love you”
“nu-huh”
“you may not believe you mean this much to me but you do”
”I love you 2”
I smiled and fell asleep w/ my head in his lap.