Can I Ever Really Love You
Spilling My Guts
Chapter 69
“I love you Sarah”
“Frank what are you doing here”
“I came to kill you”
“Why”
“Because you’re a bitch”
“No I’m not you’re an ass get the fuck out now”
“I cant… not until your dead”
Frank started walking closer to me with a gun
“I’m sorry but if I cant have you no one will” he said and shot me
I woke up screaming.
“Sarah what’s wrong” I looked next to me and there in my bed was Mark
“Mark what are you doing in my bed” I asked
“Well there’s no more room in this house so Jenni said I could sleep in here is that ok” he said
“Yea its fine”
“But what’s wrong did you have a nightmare” he asked
“Yea it was horrible I was killed by…… a car accident” I lied
“Oh well are you ok now”
“Yea I’m fine I just didn’t want to see my self dieing” I said getting off the bed
“Where are you going” he asked
“To get a drink do you want something”
“Sure just water is fine” Mark said
“K I’ll be right back”
I walked out of the room and went to the kitchen to were Jenni and Austin were making out.
“Woh! Did not see that coming” I said
“Sarah what are you doing I thought you were sleeping with Mark” Jenni said walking towards me.
“Hey don’t change the subject why would you do that to Johnny he fucking loves you… I would never have done that to he who shall not be named” I said
“Wait didn’t you already do that but in front of him” Jenni said
“It was a fucking joke and don’t you dare bring anyone down with you. Your fucking cheating right now.” I said and grabbed a bottle of water and the big bottle of vodka. I walked into my room and set the stuff down and came back out to get a drink for me.
“I cant believe your going to fuck up your relationship with Johnny for someone in a band” I said and walked away. I went back into my room and locked the door. I grabbed the bottle of vodka and chugged some.
“Sarah what’s wrong” Mark asked looking at me
“Jenni and Austin are making out in the kitchen” I said taking another chug
“Sars don’t drink over him he’s not important”
“What are you talking about Mark Jenni is cheating on Johnny with your band mate” I said looking him in the eyes.
“Oh I thought you were drinking cause of him” he said
“No I’m drinking because I cant tell Johnny what I saw he’ll freak out” I said
“Sars look at me” Mark said and I looked at him
“Jenni doesn’t seem like she’ll cheat on her boyfriend of what 4 months to go for someone who’s not gonna give a shit about her in the morning” Mark said
“Hey they actually have been going out for almost 2 in a half years”
“Wow so do you think she would really do that to Johnny”
“Maybe I don’t know unless Johnny becomes famous he might lose her” I said
“Sars stop thinking about it. She’s probably just drunk so she doesn’t know what shes doing”
“I hope so” I said and looked at him. God he is so attractive. He makes me feel so complete now.
“Sars..” Mark said looking at me
“I love that you gave me a nickname” I said smiling
“Ahh there’s that smile” he said and it looked like he got closer to me. My heart started to beat faster and faster. We slowly got closer to each other and then our lips met. We were making out for a while until he started to take off my shirt. I stopped him though.
“I’m not ready for this” I said
“I understand… are you still a virgin” he asked
“Um” Is all I said
“Are you waiting to get married before you have sex” he asked
“Yes” I lied
“So you didn’t have sex with Frank” he asked
“No I didn’t we were gonna get ma….” I started to say
“You guys were gonna get what” he asked
“Master classes on sex so we could both pleasure each other if we got married” I lied
“Oh ok well at least I know you clean” he said
“Yea are you” I asked
“I cant lie to you I have had sex before but I am clean” he said great he just had to tell me the truth.
“Oh ok” I said and kissed him hard on the lips. Why did I lie to him he wouldn’t have cared. Ok it’s a good thing I didn’t tell him about the engagement. God what am I doing tell him I lied to him.
“Mark I lied” I said
“About what” he asked
“Um me and what’s his face we um had um” I said looking away from him
“You had sex with him” he asked
“Yea he actually did take my virginity” I said still not looking at him
“Why would you lie about that”
“I don’t know at least I didn’t tell you about the engagement” I slipped fuck he’s gonna yell now.
“How long did you guys go out for…. Wait engagement” he asked
“About 2 years but it was on and off because of my father. And um yea an engagement of our friendship” I lied
“Oh ok and what’s up with your father” he asked and that’s when we spent the rest of the night talking about my dad and I left everything of how Frank was with me. I wanted so bad to forget but I guess this was a way to forget. Its been a fucking month and I’m still thinking of Frank. I wonder what he’s doing now.
“I love you Sarah”
“Frank what are you doing here”
“I came to kill you”
“Why”
“Because you’re a bitch”
“No I’m not you’re an ass get the fuck out now”
“I cant… not until your dead”
Frank started walking closer to me with a gun
“I’m sorry but if I cant have you no one will” he said and shot me
I woke up screaming.
“Sarah what’s wrong” I looked next to me and there in my bed was Mark
“Mark what are you doing in my bed” I asked
“Well there’s no more room in this house so Jenni said I could sleep in here is that ok” he said
“Yea its fine”
“But what’s wrong did you have a nightmare” he asked
“Yea it was horrible I was killed by…… a car accident” I lied
“Oh well are you ok now”
“Yea I’m fine I just didn’t want to see my self dieing” I said getting off the bed
“Where are you going” he asked
“To get a drink do you want something”
“Sure just water is fine” Mark said
“K I’ll be right back”
I walked out of the room and went to the kitchen to were Jenni and Austin were making out.
“Woh! Did not see that coming” I said
“Sarah what are you doing I thought you were sleeping with Mark” Jenni said walking towards me.
“Hey don’t change the subject why would you do that to Johnny he fucking loves you… I would never have done that to he who shall not be named” I said
“Wait didn’t you already do that but in front of him” Jenni said
“It was a fucking joke and don’t you dare bring anyone down with you. Your fucking cheating right now.” I said and grabbed a bottle of water and the big bottle of vodka. I walked into my room and set the stuff down and came back out to get a drink for me.
“I cant believe your going to fuck up your relationship with Johnny for someone in a band” I said and walked away. I went back into my room and locked the door. I grabbed the bottle of vodka and chugged some.
“Sarah what’s wrong” Mark asked looking at me
“Jenni and Austin are making out in the kitchen” I said taking another chug
“Sars don’t drink over him he’s not important”
“What are you talking about Mark Jenni is cheating on Johnny with your band mate” I said looking him in the eyes.
“Oh I thought you were drinking cause of him” he said
“No I’m drinking because I cant tell Johnny what I saw he’ll freak out” I said
“Sars look at me” Mark said and I looked at him
“Jenni doesn’t seem like she’ll cheat on her boyfriend of what 4 months to go for someone who’s not gonna give a shit about her in the morning” Mark said
“Hey they actually have been going out for almost 2 in a half years”
“Wow so do you think she would really do that to Johnny”
“Maybe I don’t know unless Johnny becomes famous he might lose her” I said
“Sars stop thinking about it. She’s probably just drunk so she doesn’t know what shes doing”
“I hope so” I said and looked at him. God he is so attractive. He makes me feel so complete now.
“Sars..” Mark said looking at me
“I love that you gave me a nickname” I said smiling
“Ahh there’s that smile” he said and it looked like he got closer to me. My heart started to beat faster and faster. We slowly got closer to each other and then our lips met. We were making out for a while until he started to take off my shirt. I stopped him though.
“I’m not ready for this” I said
“I understand… are you still a virgin” he asked
“Um” Is all I said
“Are you waiting to get married before you have sex” he asked
“Yes” I lied
“So you didn’t have sex with Frank” he asked
“No I didn’t we were gonna get ma….” I started to say
“You guys were gonna get what” he asked
“Master classes on sex so we could both pleasure each other if we got married” I lied
“Oh ok well at least I know you clean” he said
“Yea are you” I asked
“I cant lie to you I have had sex before but I am clean” he said great he just had to tell me the truth.
“Oh ok” I said and kissed him hard on the lips. Why did I lie to him he wouldn’t have cared. Ok it’s a good thing I didn’t tell him about the engagement. God what am I doing tell him I lied to him.
“Mark I lied” I said
“About what” he asked
“Um me and what’s his face we um had um” I said looking away from him
“You had sex with him” he asked
“Yea he actually did take my virginity” I said still not looking at him
“Why would you lie about that”
“I don’t know at least I didn’t tell you about the engagement” I slipped fuck he’s gonna yell now.
“How long did you guys go out for…. Wait engagement” he asked
“About 2 years but it was on and off because of my father. And um yea an engagement of our friendship” I lied
“Oh ok and what’s up with your father” he asked and that’s when we spent the rest of the night talking about my dad and I left everything of how Frank was with me. I wanted so bad to forget but I guess this was a way to forget. Its been a fucking month and I’m still thinking of Frank. I wonder what he’s doing now.