Let's Get Reckless.

Camilla’s soft-smiling face flashed across Joe’s phone. When ‘What is Love’ by Haddaway played, I nearly jumped out of my skin. My neon pink nails dug into Joe’s shoulder blades harshly in my fright. But when I saw who was calling I bit my lip in guilt, like a child caught with their hand in the cookie jar; although we hadn’t exactly been caught. That didn’t stop my stomach from dropping to the depths of my body, making me feel sick. Not that the fact helped much. The way Joe’s face fell showed me his feelings most likely mirrored mine, or worse. The little glint in his eye told me he was also upset. For what?

“Hey, Cam.” He greeted her. I was still straddling his waist, sort of frozen in place. But when the words ‘I Miss you, too’ left the lips that were just moving so in sync with mine, I moved away like his lap was the most disgusting place on Earth. I even felt sort of disgusted in myself. What kind of person am I? I actually felt like a whore right about now and it was the worst thing. Well, almost. My breakdown with Joe just a while I felt pretty shitty. All in all, I felt pretty bad.

I fled the room and went out onto the balcony. There was a slight toss of wind while the night sky entertained me with it’s midnight blue color freckled with starlights. I honestly don’t know how long I was out there, but the next thing to happen was Joe bringing out a blanket, staring at me until I gave him a stare of my own

“Mad at me?” He asked, still looking me in my eyes. I looked away and back at the sky, shaking my head.

“Then let me hold you.”

“Joe,” I said softly, shaking my head, “Joe, we…this is wrong.” While inside my stomach was doing summersault. He wanted to hold in the night of the Hawaii sky. How could deny something so beautiful? Millions of girls would jump at the opportunity to catch a glimpse of him. So what was holding me back from having so much more?

“Jamie I know-”

“But I don’t care. It just hurts to know that she has you. That, to the world, you’re hers.”

“But in truth, I’m yours. I know it, you know it. Don’t worry about the rest tonight.” With his lips burshing against mine in a soft gesture, I surrended. “Okay…”

I let him lift me up so he could sit on the chair with me in his lap. Joe draped the blanket over us and wrapped his arms around me.

“Smile for me, Reina.” He demanded softly and I turned my head. My smile was effortless; he made it easy. His fingers went and placed themselves underneath my chin, lifting slightly just so that his lips could touch to mine. “You and me, Reina.” He murmured before more kisses were given.

&&Reckless

Somehow we managed to successfully get ready for the TCAs. Who ever had the bird brain idea of all of us getting ready at each others houses obviously didn’t think this through. Joe Jonas is not easy to work with when he’s in prissy mode. And I was probably just as bad since I was freaking out. I brandished a razor at him when he stepped on my shoe. Especially when everyone was fresh out of the shower. It was horrible trying not to look at Joe while only a fresh white towel covered his bottom half, leaving his toned chest exposed.

Originally I’d be going by myself, but because Demi Lovato couldn’t attend and the boys were supposed to group with her, I was the next pick. It was…difficult to act like nothing had happened between me and Joe once we were in the car. We were sitting next to each other in the Suburban, me in the middle and Nick opposite of Joe. Kevin sat up front with Big Rob as we drove down the highway. His hand on his thigh, so close to my exposed one. When he rubbed his palm against his leg, it would brush mine and I’d shiver slightly, the contact making me nervous. Like I already knew, we’d have to keep quiet about this until Joe and Camilla were over. I predicted that much that night, but didn’t care as long as I got to have my one night of happiness. Just thinking about that night made my heart swell.

“Hey, Smiley.” Nick pinched my cheeks and I turned to bite him in warning. He kept his smirk but leaned his head on my shoulder, getting bored with the ride. It was surprisingly quiet. Only the sound of the music as we rode with the windows down. Actually, that was sort of annoying. My hair was sure to get ruined.

“Joe could you roll up the window some?” I asked as politely as I could.

“Why?” He asked, scrunching his face.

“My hair?”

“C’mon, it’s hot in here.”

“Well I don’t want it to get all messed up.” I told him. He rolled his eyes and chuckled.

“You’re such a girl.”

“Look who’s talking.” I retorted, leaning my head on his shoulder so all three of us appeared to be at a slant.

Once we were off the freeway, Big Rob began telling us where we where getting out and so and so. I kept where I was, nervous. It was this Joe business. I would be fine if I didn’t have that night emblazoned in my mind. No one knew or could guess, which I was grateful. Nick was who I was most nervous about, and luckily he was clueless. I was surprised.

As we got closer we all sat up straight and I grabbed both boys hands. I gave a squeeze while my legs shook.

“Nervous, Hun?” Joe asked me with a smirk but when he saw that I was serious he looked concerned. Nick beat him to the question though.

“What’s up, Jamie?” He asked, rubbing my shoulder.

“Er, I um, I’m just…anxious. I just don’t want to go home empty handed.” I lied but couldn’t help glancing at Joe before I said anything. And I’m pretty sure he caught on, though didn’t understand why. Psh, I wasn’t going to explain!

“Yeah, right. Of course you’re taking home something. Probably every nomination.” He assured me and I couldn’t help but smile at the younger boy. How sad is that he has to give me a pep talk? Don’t answer that.

“Thanks.” I kissed his cheek and he blushed like the shy one he truly was.

“No kiss for Joseph?’’ Joe pouted. I turned to him, looking at him more than jokingly. He caught on and I layed my hand on his shoulder, slowly leaning in to press my lips to his cheek. I knew this wasn’t the time nor place for me to start feeling for Joe but I couldn’t help it.

“How adorable!” Kevin sqeauled and I pulled back too quickly from surprise, bumping head with Nick.

“Shit.” I hissed, rubbing the side of my head while he rubbed his forehead.

“Crazy.” He pushed my shoulder, glaring at me.

“Whatever, Rockhead. I take my thank you kiss back.” I shoved him back before he opened the door to get out.

“I’m glad I don’t have to sit next to you then. If you’ve forgotten I’m the host tonight, Darling.” This loser bragged. So much for the shy, modest one.

“Oh shut up and get out before I kick you.” I lifted my leg to, but he jumped out and winked at me as a taunt. And I thought Joe was bad.

“Reina’s trying to show Nick her undies!” Joe shouted from behind me, giggling like a girl. God, your opinions on these boys just can never stay the same!

“Kiss my butt!” I shouted at him. We were getting quite childish. Joe giggling, Nick teasing, and me shouting. Kevin stood outside witgh Big Rob, spectating the fiasco. Nice big brother, yeah?

“Tell me when, Honey!” He winked and I wrinkled my face in disgust.

“I’m telling on you! Kevin Joe’s being nasty!” I tattled, slithering out of the car and trying to keep the blush away from my cheeks and the smile from my face. It was actually funny, but I wouldn’t admit that.

After we were inside, we calmed down. In a sense, I got nervous again. Like jittery almost. I tried to sip some water but my hands trembled, surprisingly. It was almost disappointing to me how dumb I was acting. How many times had I won awards with sheer confidence? There was never a time that didn’t happen. But also, there was never a boy I loved around to make that happen. Damn Joe Jonas.

“Why so nervous?” Joe came up behind my, wrapping his arms around my middle. If my water was still in my hand, it would’ve crashed to the ground.

“What are you doing?” I hissed, attempting to move away.

“Chill, Reina. Nobody guesses us. They know that we’re close.” He whispered. I looked around and no one was even paying attention. I easily relaxed into his body with a sigh. If only I could stay like this during the show. And then forever.

“I’m only nervous because of you.” I admitted.

“Don’t be. We’re in the clear.”

“You are the only one thinking that.”

“I’ll make you a deal. If you win two out of three awards tonight, I’ll help you relax.”

“Promise?” I asked before I even completely comprehended his words.

“Promise.” He pressed his lips to my neck in a sneaky kiss.