Turn Right

Over the time between now and last time I saw Nick after the TCA’s, I’ve written some songs…I thought about a lot…weather or not to trust him again. I thought about my newest song Accidentally Heartbroken that I wrote…maybe it was accident…maybe I should forgive him…possibly both of them. It was September 15th…the day before Nick’s birthday…he was turning seventeen. I was definitely not missing it. In the years of knowing Nick, I never failed to let him know I was thinking about him…even when we weren’t talking during those years of me being in Tennessee. I had Anna track down where he was and we got on a plane. We got to the venue and I hide out in the guys’ dressing room. I was relaxing on the couch as I read a magazine when I heard the door knob turn. They weren’t supposed to be back yet. I jumped up and it was Denise who came in. She screamed when she saw me though which caused me to scream as well. She clutched her chest and we ended up laughing as she hugged me.

“You scared me,” she laughed.

“I can tell”

“What are you doing here?” she asked.

“Tomorrow’s Nick’s birthday…I thought I’d surprise you all,” I smiled and she smiled back.

“Rachael…what Nick did can be unforgivable I know…but he is truly sorry”

“I know he is…that’s why I chose to give him a second chance…but I thought I would let him sweat a little longer,” I said and winked at her as she laughed and hugged me again.

I sneaked out into a chair in front of the stage and discreetly watched them rehearse. I analyzed Nick…he didn’t seem too into it…he seemed kind of depressed. I was kind of excited for tonight now.

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It was minutes before the concert and Nick was still out and about as I snuck back into the dressing room. I heard all of Honor Society, Kevin and Joe coming in and I hid in a closet. I heard them talking and then shut the door, I peeked into the room and saw them so then I flung the door open and yelled. They all screamed like little girls and I fell to the ground crying so hard from my laughter. They all scowled but then ran to me and hugged me and started laughing with me. I told them why I was here and they helped hide me from Nick. I was upset about not meeting Jordin in person because she left a tad earlier than the guys, HS was leaving tonight.

They went on to perform…and when they came off for a quick change, I got into position and when they were all changed, Joe and Kevin held Nick in place as I was introduced and Nick’s face was in pure shock. The audience went wild cheering and screaming as I rose up onto the stage on the catwalk.

“How is everyone tonight!” I yelled and pointed the microphone out to all of them.

“Good! Now while the guys go change and whatnot, I’m going to sing new songs…you wanna hear them?” I questioned and they got louder.

“Excellent,” I smiled as I was handed an acoustic guitar and a stool.

We were so happy and in love
like two doves from above
i would never give you up

then it all went wrong
the nights were so long
i said things i didnt mean
i created a big old scene

chorus: Now were through
our love that didnt grew
i didnt want this to happen
and now I gotta wake up alone
gotta keep you out of my head
cuz things were meant to be left unsaid
and now your accidently heartbroken

we ran into eachother
Now im glad were back together
i would never want another
your my one true lover

we were with are friends just hanging out
ive never had another doubt
i see you flirting with this girl
there goes my whole world

chours2: Now were through
our love that didnt grew
i didnt want this to happen
and now I gotta wake up alone
gotta keep you out of my head
cuz things were meant to be left unsaid
and when I would have woken
im accidently heartbroken

i know you never meant to hurt me
but now i see
theres a whole world out there
and my dreams are getting near

i hope you find your real love
i never wanna see you sad
dont worry im not mad
i just hope you know

chours3: know that were through
im glad are love never grew
i hope your happy that this happen
know i fall asleep with him next to me
i now he is the key
for me to never be
accidently heartbroken again.

never again

never ever again

accidently x3

accidently heartbroken

I finished and the crowd went crazy…I caught Nick’s expression and saw the same feeling I’ve seen a lot lately…the feeling of hurt and pain…then we went straight into the other one I wrote.

In the heat of the fight;
I walked away.
Ignoring words that you were saying,
Tryna make me stay.
I said, "This time I had enough."
And you've called a hundred times,
But I'm not pickin' up.
'Cause I'm so mad, I might tell you that it's over.
But if you look a little closer

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles; screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

Me and my stupid pride
Sittin' here, alone.
Going through the photographs,
Staring at the phone.
I keep going back over
The things we both said.
And I remember the slammin' door,
And all the things that I misread.
Baby you know everything,
Tell me why you couldn't see
That when I left I wanted you to
Chase after me?
I ran, jumped onto the trampoline, did a flip and landed on the other side and everyone screamed wildly.

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles; screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.

And I scream out the window,
"I can't even look at you, I don't need you,"
But I do, I do, I do.
I say, "there's nothing you can say
To make right again, I mean it,
I mean it"
What I mean is

I said, "Leave," baby all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles; screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'cause I know all I need
is on the other side of the door.
I grabbed a few fans’ hands.

With your face, and your beautiful eyes,
And the conversation,
With the little white lies.
And the faded picture
Of a beautiful night
You carry me from your car
up the stairs
And I'm broke-down cryin'
Wish we weren't this messed,
After everything in that little black dress
After everything, I must confess,
I need you
I saw Nick’s face this time…and now it was clear he understood. He smiled lightly. Now he knows I still want him…I still need him. He came onto the stage as the trampoline went down under the stage and a big piano came up in its place. The crowd went wild…I felt myself burning up with every step he took that got him closer to me.