Wild Night

My finger nails dug into his back. My legs wrapped around his middle bringing him closer in me. It brought me bliss to know people could hear us. Even if we ourselves were not making any noise the thumping would make it obvious enough. There isn't much room in a bus bathroom. My mouth found its way from neck to lips. Hungrily trying to give back. These lips are familiar even in the hazy state I am in. But being in the state I'm in I'm sure I'm not enjoying this as much as I'd like. I leaned against the mirror. Blacking in and out. A muffled noise.

Melly: I'm fine love.

I mumbled out. Helping me down a hand grabbed my shoulder. I pulled my skirt down and my pulled my underwear up. I pushed passed the body and walked out into the party. The music was extra loud. Very in your face. I blinked a few times. Hopefully it would clear my eyes and I could see straight. Brian and Jenn's familiar figures came into view slightly.

Melly: hello sweethearts.

Brian: Melly!

He gave me a drunken smile.

Jenn: shall we have a smoke?

Melly: that sounds lovely.

Brian lit up smokes for all of us.

Brian: where is Matt?

I pointed in front of me, then beside, then behind.

Melly: ummm...he's yeah.

They nodded.

Jenn: what are you on?

Melly: something...umm...Johnny.

I frowned and blew some smoke out. There were a lot of people moving about. It reminded me of ants in an ant farm. Always busy moving. Jenn placed a hand on my shoulder.

Jenn: are you all right?

Melly: I just need a drink.

She shook her head and walked off quickly coming back just as fast.

Jenn: drink this.

I took a good drink but spit it out.

Melly: water?

I handed it back but she let it slip from her hands.

Matt: Melly.

His arms wrapped around me.

Melly: there you are husband.

Matt: where did you go? I haven't seen you in about two hours.

Melly: don't be so silly we just were in the bathroom.

He made a face and looked at the other two.

Matt: wake up.

Melly: I wasn't sleeping. The party is just getting started.

Jenn: come on Melly let's leave.

Melly: yes we need beverage.

Jenn: yes.

We walked off. I woke up naked. Close to it anyway. Bra and undies. Outside. On the ground. Gravel...lovely. I used the bus next to me to stand up. Early morning for sure. The sun was just rising. And some party stragglers were still at it. I'd be one of them had I not passed out.

Melly: who's fucking bus is this?

The group looked at me.

Guy: Melly this our bus.

He said slowly. I looked at the stranger talking to me. I'd no idea who he was. He knew me.

Melly: who the fuck are you?

Guy: Frank.

Melly: Frank? The only Frank I know is my Uncle.

He looked at his friends.

Frank: Melly we party with you and the guys all the time.

Melly: so?

Guy2: this is My Chems bus.

A kid with extremely curly hair said.

Melly: thanks. See you bitches at the next party.

I walked off. There is no way I'll be left behind this time. It was kinda cold out this morning. I rubbed my arm to warm it. Little bits and pieces of dirt and gravel fell off. I walked up to a bus. It looked like ours. I punched the code in and the door unlocked.

Melly: rad.

I walked in and closed the door. No one was there. They must be out still. A pack of cigs begged me to smoke one of them. So I complied and went back outside. I lit it up and inhaled. A sore stiffness in my upper thighs gave me slight discomfort. I hugged my free arm around myself. Letting my eyes wonder around the little area. My feet carried me to the other side of the bus. Where the sun was now hitting. It might warm me up a bit. I closed my eyes and stood perfectly still. In the distance voices filled the air. As they got closer, they became clearer.

Matt: who saw her last?

Jenn: Zacky said he was for the hundredth Fucking Time Matthew!

She was clearly irritated.

Jenn: I'm fucking tired. You assholes can find her your fucking selves. I guarantee you she's absolutely fucking fabulous.

I smiled. My friend knew me all to well. To worry is useless. I'd show up eventually.

Matt: she can't get better this way.

Jenn: you can't force someone to clean up who doesn't want to idiot.

Jimmy: she's right Matt.

Jenn: and Melly is far from wanting to.

Matt: where was the last place you saw her Zacky?

Zacky: the party last night.

I put my cigarette out and walked around the bus quietly. Matt's back was to me. Hands on his hips. Jenn caught sight of me first. Brian looked fucked up.

Brian: oh...my...

Matt quickly turned around. His eyes went wide for a brief moment then glared.

Matt: where are your clothes?

He looked away from me.

Melly: fuck if I know love, I woke up this way.

I pushed passed him and looked at the others. They were silent.

Melly: what?

Matt: what? What? Melly you look like a rape victim.

Melly: for all I know I am. I woke up on the ground outside a bus.

I shrugged. Brian hurled in the middle of everyone. I took a step back.

Zacky: oh dude.

Melly: let him puke its the only thing that's going to make him feel better.

Matt grabbed my arm.

Melly: awo love. That hurts.

He dragged me on the bus and shoved me in the bathroom.

Matt: look at yourself. Look at yourself!

Melly: I heard you the first time.

I was a bit surprised. My eyes looked tired. The bags were deep and dark. My eyes half mast. Blank expression. I had what looked like hickys on my neck. Scratches all over. My bra covered in dirt. Bruises on my arms.

Matt: tell me there isn't anything wrong with you.

Melly: I'm fine.

Matt: wrong. Melly you're killing yourself.

Melly: how many different ways can you tell me that? How many times are we going to have this conversation?

Matt: until you see you're not ok.

Melly: I'll figure it out when I die.

He sighed painfully. His hands grabbed my shoulders.

Matt: am I not good enough a reason for you to calm down? You don't have to stop you just need to calm down.

Melly: you're hurting me.

Matt: I can't take watching you waste away. I've seen you do the same thing day in and day out. Drink and get fucked up all day. From the moment you wake up till you pass out.

Melly: imagine being my boyfriend. There would be no relationship.

I said with a smile. He rested his forehead on the door frame.

Matt: the worst part is you don't see what the rest of us do.

I shrugged.

Melly: I see a girl having fun.

Matt: do you even know what day it is? Time? Month?

Melly: who fucking cares.

I said seriously.

Melly: how does that make a difference to me?

Matt: it doesn't to you. Melly we're almost done with the tour.

I frowned.

Matt: exactly Melly. You've been so fucked up its passed. The whole summer has passed.

Melly: Val just left like...

Matt: weeks ago.

Melly: damn.

I said unexcitedly. I leaned against the tiny ass counter in the bathroom and looked at my arms.

Melly: you sure did leave a mark this time Matthew. Must have been one good fuck.

I laughed a little.

Melly: its funny how you're all, "you need to take care yourself" and yet you left me on the ground.

Matt: Melly...

He shook his head again.

Matt: I didn't and would never leave you like that.

I thought hard.

Melly: did we fuck? At all?

Matt: yes. After that you disappeared.

Frowning I thought deeply. My eyes scanned myself in the mirror.

Melly: Zacky...

I ran my hand across it. Matt raised a brow.

Melly: Johnny.

His eyes filled with a sadness, disappointment, and no surprise.

Matt: you fucked them, I know. They told me.

Melly: there must have been someone else.

I looked at Matt and shrugged.

Melly: I can't remember.

Matt: how do you feel?

Melly: fine, I'm sore but whatever.

His shoulders sagged a bit.

Matt: you aren't hurt are you?

Melly: no.

I was calm.

Matt: I'm really fucking pissed.

Melly: why?

Matt: don't act stupid Melly.

Melly: because of this incident? Seriously?

Matt: seriously.

I got up in his face.

Melly: to late to help me, Matthew.

Matt: its not.