So Sacrifice Yourself, and Let Me Have What's Left

This man was perfect. Everything I wanted in a person who would actually look past the hideous outside of me and saw the inside, he was. I still wasn’t sure what made him want me, but I’m so glad that whatever I did, worked. I didn’t deserve him. He was too good. He would always tell me that he didn’t deserve me, but I always disagree. I was nothing, and he was everything to me. I was just a helpless little girl that didn’t deserve anything other than a path towards hell once I finally did this world a favor and left with my body rotting under the ground. There were days when I wanted to place my hand on Zacky’s forehead to make sure he wasn’t sick. He couldn’t be in his right state of mind if he actually gave up someone as perfect as Gena for me. I know it sounds like I’m being too hard on myself, but I had to be. No matter how much I changed in my confidence, I still felt the need to prepare myself for the day that Zacky finally comes to his senses and saw me as the hideous person I am and I would be capable in doing nothing but watch as Zacky ran away from me and into Gena’s arms. It killed me to think these things, but it scared me to know that some of this could be true. Sure, Zacky has said that he loves me, but he could be lieing. He could be trying to make me feel better about myself.

I thought these things as I watched the sleeping angel next to me in our bed, in our room, listening to his soft snores, which only made him even more adorable. I couldn’t help myself any longer. I lifted my hand from his chest to cup his cheek. I could feel the slight stubble on my sensitive fingertips as I rubbed my thumb softly against his pale skin.

I thought about the events from last night. It seemed like two seconds after Kala had explained to Evangeline about how she was assigned to kill me, but to get to know me first, a loud knock came from the door. I jumped a bit at the sudden noise, but it didn’t seem to affect Kala or Evangeline one bit as one of them answered the door. My heart fluttered as I heard Zacky’s voice, only it sounded angry, which was a new one. He was usually so calm and laid back, what was wrong with him now? I remember hearing Kala’s perfect voice; only it was in the same harsh tone as when she first noticed Zacky. I remember hearing Zacky demanding that I come down the stairs—how he knew that’s where I was I have no idea—and Kala gave in without a fight. I figured that perhaps she’s going to try to get on Zacky’s good side in order to get closet to me, considering the first thing you have to get through to get to me is Zacky. He’s like the brick wall that separates me from all of the bad things in the world, and I honestly could care less. I love having him protect me, and I want him to do it for as long as we’re together. I still don’t know how Zacky knew that I was in potential danger, nor do I care. I was happy to see him and have him rescue me from the vampyres—which is what I’m pretty much guessing Kala and Evangeline are—and to leave with him in one piece. Kala seemed a bit disappointed at how Zacky had to take me away because Zacky came up with the excuse that my mother was wondering where I was, which is probably the biggest lie anyone could ever tell, and so I decided to make it up to Kala. I said that we should go to the mall tomorrow, or today, I guess, and Kala agreed. Zacky had a few words to say about that once we were in the car and driving towards mine and Brian’s house. Everyone, and I mean all the guys, were going to be with Kala and I while we were together, just not all at once. The guys would be at the mall with us, they would just be keeping their distance so Kala wouldn’t become suspicious. Zacky, however, was most likely going to be glued to my hip the entire time I was with Kala.

After a few strokes of my thumb against his cheek, Zacky’s eyes fluttered open almost instantly, and his jade green eyes came back to life as they immediately directed towards me.

A sleepy smile crept on the angel’s face. “Morning.” His voice croaked from awakening from the peaceful slumber he was in moments ago. He kept his arm securely around my waist, only his muscles tensed after waking up, pulling me closer to him, if that was possible.

“Morning.” I replied, my voice in its normal tone. I had already gotten up and started the day with my usual routine in the bathroom, considering I thought it was a school day, when it was really Saturday. I already brushed my teeth and whatnot before I figured it out. After mentally slapping myself upside the head, I crept back into the room to see Zacky still asleep, so I decided to follow suit. I wasn’t as lucky, however, considering I failed to once close my eyes longer than two seconds.

”Did you sleep well?” Zacky asked in mid-yawn, burying his face into the pillow so that I wouldn’t suffer the Curse of the Morning Breath. He closed his eyes slowly, keeping them shut for a few moments before opening them once more again, exposing his jade green eyes once more to me. I nodded at his question, unable to say anything in the presence of his natural beauty. Zacky smiled slightly, his lip rings moving against his plush lips. “That’s good.” He said, his voice barely above a whisper.

I kept my hand on his cheek, and he didn’t object. He never cared if I touched him for the sake of feeling his warm skin against mine, which was a good thing, considering I did it often. I began to stroke my thumb against his rough cheek, only causing his sleepy smile to widen.

“God, I love you.” I whispered before mentally slapping myself for the second time in one hour. I didn’t mean to say that out loud. So much for innermost thoughts.

I watched in confusion as Zacky seemed to wake himself up more as his grin had now widened even more, exposing his teeth. His fingers tightened around the small of my back as his jade orbs continued to look at nothing but my green eyes. “I love you, too.” he whispered. “More than you will ever know.” I felt my cheeks warm up a bit, only making Zacky chuckle. “Can I have my Good Morning Kiss?” I shook my head, and Zacky’s smile faded slightly. “Why not?”

“Brush your teeth, then I’ll kiss you.” I stated, a slight smirk forming on my lips. I knew how much Zacky hated it when I wouldn’t kiss him. He didn’t get angry, but he would always get determined.

Zacky sighed, shaking his head slightly with a smile before getting out of our bed and walking out of our room. My eyes wandered down his body—which had nothing but boxers covering as much as they could—before he closed the door that led into the bathroom. I turned on my stomach, my arms hidden under my pillow as I closed my eyes. I listened to the sound of the sink water running, signaling Zacky was brushing his teeth. I yawned into the pillow, counting how many seconds Zacky wasn’t beside me in our bed.

By the time I was in the four hundreds, I opened my eyes when I heard the door open. I smiled as a now completely awake Zacky closed the door behind him. “Now do I get my kiss?” he asked. I nodded, and Zacky walked towards me, a slight smirk playing on his lips. I moved over on the bed a bit so Zacky could have more room, even though his side was completely empty, leaving more than enough room for him. I turned on my side once he was lying down next to me.

We didn’t even say anything. I immediately leaned in, so did Zacky, and soon our lips met in the middle. I thought it was going to stay at nothing but innocent, that is, until I felt Zacky’s tongue trace my lower lip. I smirked against his lips as I parted mine slightly, and Zacky’s tongue roughly roamed my mouth like it had done so many times before. My hands immediately found their way to hold his neck as I kissed back with just as much force. Both of Zacky’s arms had now wrapped themselves tightly around my waist, practically crushing me, but I’m not complaining. Our tongues clashed and fought before our lips apologized by hugging each other, that is, before our tongues wanted to fight once more. My leg slowly made its way to drape around his thighs as our kiss became more heated than normal. I could tell that Zacky wasn’t going to give up this time, or let anything get in the way.

I found myself with my back pressed against the bed and Zacky hovering over me. He positioned himself to where he was in between my legs and was quick to attach his lips onto mine once more as his hands were placed where my ribs should be. I kept one hand on his neck; the other began to trail down his chest, feeling his tone stomach. A quick groan escaped Zacky’s lips once we parted, and I could see that his eyes were clouded, meaning he was no longer responsible for any of his actions. Zacky wearily kissed my lips, lingering there for a bit, before leaving a trail of kisses down my skin. I bit my lip at the feel of his lips kissing my weak spot. Zacky knew that this was my weak spot, so I knew he was going to do everything in his power to make me go crazy. I let out a whimper as his tongue ran down my neck, followed by his teeth gently biting down on my weak spot. This made me moan involuntarily, but I knew that Zacky loved it. I gasped as I felt Zacky’s hips grind into mine, causing my lower stomach to grow hot. I felt Zacky’s hand run up my shirt, and I felt him smirk against my lips once he realized I didn’t have a bra on. I let a soft moan escape my lips as I felt his fingers kneading my breast, and closed my eyes at the feel of Zacky’s hips grinding into mine even harder than before. My head began to relax against the pillow it was rested upon as I felt my whole body fall under Zacky’s trance. A low growl erupted in Zacky’s throat as I felt his length press against me, only causing me to relax even more. It surprised me that I didn’t have any regrets about what we were going to do. I wanted this, and I knew Zacky wanted it, too. I now had both of my hands on Zacky’s chest, with my fingers tensing on his chest at the feel of his hips grinding into mine, and his length pressing against me.

“Zacky…” the name slipped off my tongue in a whisper when I knew I couldn’t take much more of this. Hearing his name only caused Zacky to smirk as he placed another kiss onto my lips before slipping both hands up my shirt, preparing to take it off.

“Ha, fucker you owe me five bucks!” I heard Jimmy exclaim as the door that led into mine and Zacky’s room burst open, causing Zacky and I to jump at the unexpected interruption of our, uh, alone time.

I looked over to see Jimmy and Johnny standing at our doorway, looking at both of us. Jimmy looked way too proud of himself, and Johnny sighed in defeat. I looked up at Zacky, who was glaring at the both of them like he was ready to kill them at any moment. Something told me that I wasn’t far from the truth.

“What the fuck are you two doing?” Zacky growled, and I couldn’t help but feel my cheeks blushing at the sound of the slight pant in his voice.

“We couldn’t decide if you two were fucking or not.” Jimmy shrugged, holding out his hand to Johnny, who didn’t look like he was going to give whatever Jimmy wanted from him. “I bet you weren’t, and short shit over here did, so you owe me five mother fucker!” he exclaimed, and Johnny sighed, digging into his pants pocket for some extra cash.

“Johnny!” I exclaimed, earning his attention. I’m guessing my look said it all, because Johnny instantly looked like he regretted his bet.

“Sorry, I just thought since you two are pretty much attached at the hip this was a regular.” He chuckled, handing Jimmy his five dollars, who gladly stuck it into his back pants pocket.
“So, what if we were and you walked in on us?” I asked. I was slightly angry at the both of them for interrupting. I really wanted it, and they just had to walk in, didn’t they?

“Then we’d get to see that sexy body of yours.” Jimmy winked, causing me to chew on the inside of my lip and giggle slightly. I felt Zacky’s arms tighten around my waist, which had somehow managed to detach themselves from my chest, and I could tell that Zacky didn’t think Jimmy’s remark was very funny.

“Hey! If anyone gets to see her naked it’s gonna be me!” Zacky barked, only causing me to hide my blushing cheeks in his shoulder. I couldn’t believe he had actually said that.

I heard a gasp coming from where Johnny and Jimmy were, and I could tell they were shocked that Zacky hadn’t seen me naked. “Wow, Ace, way to push away the rapist.” Jimmy chuckled, only causing my cheeks to burn even more, it was starting to hurt from the blood rising in my cheeks so rapidly.

“Can you two just get the fuck out of here?” Zacky asked, and I could tell he was still glaring at our unexpected guests. Jimmy and Johnny muttered ‘whatever’, and I could hear the door close behind them, which I’m guessing was Johnny’s doing. I knew Jimmy could’ve cared less if he gave us the privacy we wanted or not. “Sorry about that.” Zacky whispered into my hair, pulling me up to where I was sitting straight. I nodded, looking down his chest. I giggled at the sight of his tent from his boxers, and Zacky sighed. “Can you leave, please?” I knew he wouldn’t want to leave this room while his friend had woken up, mainly because I knew the guys would be watching to see if Zacky had really had a hard or not, and I nodded once more.

I got up from the position we were in and was about to get off the bed before I felt Zacky’s hand grab my arm. I gave him a confused look, and the smirk stayed on Zacky’s face as he pressed his lips onto mine in a sweet and gentle way. Once our lips parted, I couldn’t help but look down at his length. “Just clean up when you’re done.” I laughed slightly.

“Will do,” Zacky chuckled, kissing my temple before I got off of the bed and walked to the door. “Have fun getting tortured by the guys.” Zacky said, and I nodded, not daring to look back at him as I opened the door and closed it behind me.

I leaned against the door, and I could hear the guys laughing in the living room. I knew that if I went out there, the guys would tease and make fun of me, just because they’re that immature. But, if I went back into mine and Zacky’s room...well, we could finish our alone time like we were before Jimmy and Johnny walked in. I had never felt this way towards anyone, nor had I been stuck in this position. I was actually debating whether to walk back into the room or not. I heard a groan come from behind the door I was leaning against, and that made me place my hand on the doorknob.

I really hope I’m doing the right thing.